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Izzy cursed but tightened his hold. "I've got you, baby."
But he didn't. How could he when he struggled with his own demons.
Chapter Twenty
Todd had Izzy's phone. He'd gained access to Izzy's dating app. The first thing Todd did was take pictures of Izzy. He snapped one of Izzy holding out a helmet to Todd.
"Put this on."
"In a minute." Todd took another one of Izzy with his Daddy face. It was the one Izzy got when he was exasperated with Todd but also found his shenanigans cute. "Can you straddle the bike?"
"As soon as you put on the helmet." Izzy smirked as if he'd won some sort of contest of wits.
Todd sighed and grabbed the helmet, sticking it on his head. It was so crooked it covered his left eye, making him panic a little but he tried not to.
Izzy chuckled and straightened it. And then he secured the strap under his chin. "Little goof."
Todd grinned. "You secretly like it when I'm goofy."
Izzy kissed him. "It's cute."
Todd grinned and let Izzy's compliment warm his insides. Todd wrapped his arms around Izzy and lay his head on hischest. The helmet got in the way. "I don't know what being mates means but you're boyfriend material for sure. Ten out of ten would recommend."
Izzy chuckled and wrapped his arms around Todd, holding him. It was the way he held Todd that made him boyfriend material. He was a big guy with a hardness about him speaking of a ruthlessness Todd hadn't experienced yet. He hoped he never would. But it all added up to a person who shouldn't have much of a tender side but did.
Todd had never been with anyone who liked to hold him as much as Izzy seemed to want to.
"It's more like we’re husbands than boyfriends," Izzy scowled, as if something about the conversation upset him.
One of them had commitment issues and it wasn’t Todd. Or maybe Izzy had a fear of abandonment. Either way, it didn't have anything to do with Todd. Izzy’s issues might have been tied to something in Izzy's past. Whatever it was made him scared to lose Todd and Ulises. Especially Ulises. He'd begged Ulises not to die yesterday. It had brought tears to Todd's eyes because it had been so heartfelt.
Todd wanted to go slow. Maybe date for a while before getting serious. He’d never considered dating two guys at the same time while they also dated each other. Not that it was happening yet but if Todd had his way, he'd have Ulises between them by the end of the night.
"So we're sort of married now? That's it." What about consummating the relationship? He wanted to have sex. With Izzy. Soon. Like soon.
"We have to bond. That means I'll bite you while we make love."
"We're calling it making love."
"Yes." Izzy pecked him on the lips, which was awkward with the helmet so big on his head, but it was still sweet. "We can't until I bite Ulises first or the bonding won't take with him."
"And it's making love with him too? For you?"
"It felt that way a while ago. I just didn't want to admit it." Izzysighed. "I still don't but I'm in love with him and that's just the way it is."
Izzy spoke those words as if they were a death sentence.
"So you what? You just wanted to play around with other people. And he got in the way of that." Todd knew that wasn't the issue. It went way deeper than that. But a part of him needed to hear Izzy deny it. Todd was gun-shy after having been cheated on before. And it didn't help that he was jealous as hell of the guy Ulises was having a date with at the club.
Todd had never experienced feelings for two people at the same time. With Izzy there was a bond already started. It was as if they'd known each other their entire life. The attraction was there but so was this instant softening of his heart. He wanted to love him. It wouldn't take long for it to happen. With Ulises it was a whole lot of lust. And as much as Ulises was an independent person, Todd had an instinct to take care of him, which meant he wanted to feed Ulises all the orange rolls he could eat.
Izzy growled. "It's not about fucking around. Meeting you pretty much put an end to that."
"You didn't want a mate." Todd could see it in his eyes.
"No. I didn't. But here you are."
Todd huffed and wiggled out of Izzy's arms. "Don't do me any favors, Izzy."
