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"My body doesn’t even like me." And saying that aloud made the tears come in earnest.
"I'm sure it feels that way sometimes, but you have a medical condition. And aren't you the sum of your parts."
"Some parts are rejecting other parts. It's war in here." Ulises waved his hand up and down his body.
"And what does that have to do with Izzy?"
"It's the reason he broke off the thing we had." He couldn't call it a relationship since they had only been fucking. But Ulises had wanted more.
"He told you that?"
"Yeah."
"In those words?"
"I said something about it wasn't like he did me any favors and he looked at the tumor on my neck and said, 'wasn't I, though?'." Izzy had made Ulises feel dirty, as though he weren't good enough for a relationship. And he hadn't been able to shake it since.
"Daddy says I can't kill anyone for the next two months. But Izzy is first on my list when my time ends."
"I really don't want that."
Seryn sighed.
"Why two months?"
"It's arbitrary. Daddy will extend it if he thinks I need it."
"Are you especially killy right now or something?" Talking about murder should’ve been a scary conversation. While no one should speak of such a serious and irreversible act as nonchalantly as they were, Seryn wasn't a normal person.
Ulises knew he'd had a traumatic past. The particulars weren't common knowledge amongst the Dragon Skulls, not even to Ulises. Whatever had happened made him capable of killing with relative ease.
"Not really. It's just that I stopped working so much. Need to spend time with Daddy. The transition is more difficult than I anticipated. And we're not talking about me. We're talking about you."
Ulises pursed his lips and scrunched his nose. "Do we have to?"
"Not if you don't want to. We can go back to conjuring a dome if you want."
He didn't want to do that either. "So how do I get past Izzy and Todd as a thing?"
Seryn shrugged. "You don't want to fuck just anyone, I take it."
Ulises shook his head. "One thing I learned about myself with Izzy was that I'm not cut out for casual."
"So what about going for one of the other guys in the club? Ronin. Or maybe even Nash." Seryn's wheels were turning. "Or do you prefer someone more like Todd? Physically I mean."
Todd was hot. Ulises was very attracted. "I don't know if I have a specific type. Other than they need to be a gentle Daddy. You know the kind I mean."
Seryn nodded. "Gentle like Mitchell."
"Probably. But right now, I think I need to give it up. My tumor will grow back eventually anyway, and no one wants a guy witha thing growing on the side of his neck. I'm also a warlock who can't do magic. And I suck at dating. I can just imagine how disastrous a relationship would actually be."
Seryn raised his eyebrows. "Stop the wallowing and get back out there."
Ulises narrowed his eyes. "The closest I ever came to a relationship was with Izzy who fucked me because he thought he was doing me a favor. I have earned my right to wallow in despair, so let me just have a moment."
Seryn gave him a one-shoulder shrug that suggested he had a point. "Not to add to the sob story but Izzy and Todd are probably in my kitchen making out right now."
Ulises held up his hands and nodded his head. "See what I mean."
