Page 41 of A Love So Wrong
"Go away," came the muffled response.
He ignored her, remembering the image of her crying earlier. Turning her over from her side, he pushed her flat onto her back.
"Leave me alone," she moaned, her hands coming up to push at his chest.
Gideon welcomed the contact, he rather have this than nothing. Push him, hit him he didn’t care as long as she touched him, as long as she didn’t ignore him. Shifting until he was over her, Gideon kept himself hovering halfway over her with his arms as she stared up at him. He could see the confusion mingle with her anger and all it made him want to do was kiss her. She was just so damn soft and warm. It felt like there was a soft fire of marshmallows beneath him and all he wanted to do was bury himself into it.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doing this. I'm sorry for getting so angry. You're right, this was stupid I just…I just wanted a win." God, that sounded dumb even to him.
The furrow in her brow did not soften as she stared silently back up at him.
"Please, Jade," he whispered. "Don’t be mad at me,"
Jade gave him a stern look. "Tell me you won't ever do anything like this ever again."
Gideon shifted above her, resisting the urge to lower himself to her lips, and nodded. "I won't, I promise."
"And tell me you won't ever ignore me when I'm trying to talk to you like you did to me today," she added, and he could see the hurt still lingering there. "I felt like you didn’t care what I wanted or felt."
Unable to resist any longer, he lowered himself on top of her, enjoying the sharp sound of her intake of breath as he settled against her soft breasts. Shamelessly he nuzzled his face into her t-shirt, feeling the soft mounds rub up against the sides of his face.
"Forgive me," he groaned, hugging her body tight. "I'll never do it again."
"Oh…” her voice came out in a breathy squeak. “Ok.”
Eventually, he felt her fingers glide through his hair, and his dick twitched against the mattress. Closing his eyes, Gideon listened to the sound of her heart beating against his ear.
"I think I had gotten used to everything going perfectly after the Lattimores. Life was just so easy and perfect with them. I don’t think I even realized how much dad was holding things together until he passed,” he admitted. “Then without him, I felt like all of it was just thrown in the air, and you and I were scrambling to catch the pieces and hold on. Do you know before dad died, I always thought I would be a great man like him? A dependable man who would be able to provide you and mom the same perfect life? Fuck, I have never been so wrong. I couldn’t even—"
"Stop. Just stop," the sharp tug to his hair stopped his words, and he could feel her heart rate increase beneath him. “I don't want to hear you say that. I love you, Gideon, more than anyone in the world. You have done everything perfectly," her voice gently vibrated through his body, and he willed her words of love to sink into his bones. “You kept us safe, warm, happy, and together. This was just a minor setback. We'll get back to where we were again, and soon, we will have our home again back in Stardust. Please don't put yourself down that way. I just want you to see yourself how I see you as the best thing that's ever happened to me."
It felt as if his throat was closing up. His muscles tensed, and he drew her closer feeling the warm curves of her breasts press further into his face. God, he hoped he could just die here. His body was rushing from her words, and he could feel his dick pressing painfully into the mattress. Turning his head deeper into her breasts until his nose and mouth lay in the sweet seam of her breasts, he muffled a reply.
"Go to sleep," he groaned. Before I do something stupid, he added to himself.
