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My voice is really hoarse I’m not sure if he can hear me well.“Yeah, that was damn good.”
“I’m glad I pleased you.”
“You always please me.Inside and out.”
“That’s what I like to hear.I like to please you over and over again, in many ways.”
Yes, he does.
He sucks on my bottom lip and lets go with a pop.I look down at him and notice something for the first time.“You didn’t take off your clothes.”
“No time, I wanted you too badly.I barely got the condom on.That’s what you do to me; you drive me crazy with need.”
I smile at him, kissing the side of his face.
“You like that, huh?”
I nod my head up and down and he slaps me on the side of my butt softly.
“Let’s go take a bath so I can take you to bed.I want to stay in you for as long as I can, but I have to take this off.I can’t wait to stop using these with you.”
I look down at our bodies, still joined, and the condom on him.He brushes my hair out of my face.I look up in his eyes, mesmerizing as always.
“Cat, I don’t want to have anything between us.”
“Me either,” I say, resting my forehead against his.A melancholy mood settles over me.“I wish we didn’t have so many things working against us.I want it to be only me and you.”
“I know, baby, I know.”
Cat
Iwake up in Nick’sbed, and he’s not here.What time is it?I roll over and look at my phone.It’s 3 a.m.I roll over to his side of the bed on my stomach; putting my head on his pillow, I inhale deeply.His pillow smells like him, a crisp, fresh, masculine scent I can’t quite place.I wonder where he is.I still can’t believe I’m here in his bed, naked as the day I was born.I smile to myself.I can’t believe I’m here after all these years.It’s not how I would have wanted it to happen, but I can’t deny this is a dream come true.
I don’t know how we’re going to make this work with everything and everyone against us.When my family finds out about us, they’ll probably disown me.Kate’s going to hate me.If I were her, I would definitely hate me.
Maybe the best thing to do is keep this thing between Nick and me a secret for as long as possible.Nick’s not going to like sneaking around, lying to everyone for too long.I hate the idea of us hiding the way we feel about each other, but I don’t want to be the one to break my family’s heart, to see the disappointment in their faces for what I’ve done and what I’m doing to my sister.God, it’s going to be a hundred times worse when they find out she’s pregnant.
This was not what I envisioned when I decided to come back.I thought Nick and I had a real chance of being together.What can be better than being in love with your best friend, the person who knows you the best, who you can share almost anything with without being judged?The last thing in the world I expected was to come home and find out my sister is engaged— much less pregnant—to the same man I spent more than half of my life loving.It will always hurt every time I think about it.Damn.Life can be a cruel bitch.When you’ve found the happiness you’ve always wanted, it slaps you across the face and tells you to wake the fuck up!
I roll back over to the other side of the bed to look at my phone again.Sitting up, I scan the room for something to put on so I can go find Nick.I see one of his white dress shirts folded neatly on a chair.I throw the covers off, walk over and put it on.It’s big on me, practically swallowing me up.I feel like a little kid playing dress up in her daddy’s clothes, except this daddy is the hottest daddy I’ve ever seen.A picture of Kate and a baby in her arms—who looks like Nick—pops into my head.I close my eyes against the ache in my chest and push it out of my mind.I hope this baby is not Nick’s.It would make things easier.Wouldn’t it be great if I had a genie in a bottle?
I stand in the doorway,watching him.I can stare at him for hours.He’s sitting on the floor in his pajama pants, shirtless, well-defined abs clearly outlined with his back against the sofa.His legs are up, forearms on his knees, a beer bottle in his hand.He’s deep in thought.To anyone else it would seem as if he’s relaxed and enjoying the view of the city.But I can see his jaw is tense and his lips are drawn together.Maybe he’s having second thoughts about us.Why wouldn’t he?I’m having doubts myself.As much as I want to be with him, I would be lying to myself and to him if I said I wasn’t scared about what lies ahead for us.This is a no-win situation for everyone.We all have something to lose.For me, the respect of my family and them seeing me in a different light.What if they choose sides, and I’m not on the side they choose?I don’t know if I can handle being an outsider in my own family.
As much as I don’t want Kate’s baby to be Nick’s, I know if it’s not, she’ll be losing out on a great father for her baby.She’s still my sister and I love her, I want her have the best—to be happy and have everything she’s ever wanted; married to a wonderful man and a father for her child that will put the both of them first before anyone or anything else.Like Ava said, a man that will show her and her child a love that only comes around once in a lifetime.
Nick runs the chance of losing a family he’s known and been close to for years.He could lose a friend that is a brother to him.Family comes first, but they are family to each other.They grew up together, wherever one was the other was never far behind.Not everyone is lucky enough to have a friendship like theirs.
I watch him for another few minutes before I decide to walk to him.Seeing him sitting there, raising the bottle to his mouth, taking a long pull of his beer, looking sexier than any man has a right to in the middle of the night, makes me want to run my hands through his charcoal black hair, ease my legs over him, taking his lips between my teeth, kissing him until I can’t think anymore.
“Hey, you,” I whisper to him, not wanting to disturb the peacefulness in the room.He takes my hand, and I can’t help but smile at the feeling that flows up to my arms through my body from this one simple touch.I sit down next to him and flick my tongue over his shoulder with an open-mouthed kiss.
“Mmm…if you keep that up, I’m going to rip that shirt off, and we’re going to go for round three right here on the floor.”
“I wouldn’t object.I think I might like that.Me on my back, you on top of me, doesn’t sound too bad at all.”
“No, it doesn’t.”
He kisses me softly on the lips and puts his hand on the side of my face with the beer bottle in the other hand.I open my mouth and run my tongue against his upper lip.I feel the warmth of his mouth against mine, the sweet taste of beer mixed with his unique flavor.I moan and pull back to look into his eyes, and he rests his forehead against mine.
