Page 70 of The Duke's Accidental Wallflower
Her words lingered in the air, and Evan found himself thinking not just of Chastity’s daring but of Minerva’s quiet strength, her wit, and the vulnerability she so rarely showed. Whatever schemes had brought him into their orbit that day, he couldn’t deny that they had left an indelible mark.
Twenty-Nine
Minerva walked beside Lord Gillies, the gravel path of Hyde Park crunching softly beneath their shoes. The late afternoon sun shone gently through the canopy of trees, dappling the ground with light and shadow. The air was fragrant with the scent of blooming flowers, but Minerva barely noticed. Her mind was weighed down by Lord Gillies’s words, and with each step they took, the future he envisioned felt more oppressive.
The serene beauty of Hyde Park stretched around them, the dappled sunlight falling in lazy patches across the gravel path. A cool breeze rustled the leaves overhead, but to Minerva, the air felt too still, too stifling. Even the birdsong seemed muffled, as though the natural world itself recognized the weight of her thoughts.
Lord Gillies strolled with an air of supreme confidence, his walking stick tapping rhythmically against the path. His shoulders were thrown back, his chin lifted, and he spoke with the certainty of a man who had already made every decisionthat mattered. Minerva found herself struggling to keep up, both physically and mentally, as he laid out his plans.
“Our country estate will require some renovations,” he said, his tone almost boastful. “I have already begun thinking about adding a new wing, perhaps a grand conservatory for entertaining guests. And, naturally, we must prepare for a family. Two nurseries, one for the boys and one for the girls.”
Minerva felt her heart sink, her pulse quickening in unease. The idea of nurseries, of children—of a life spent moving dully from one expectation to the next—left a bitter taste in her mouth. She clasped her hands together tightly.
“That sounds... ambitious,” she said, her voice carefully even. She glanced sideways at him, hoping he might ask for her opinion or even notice her discomfort. But he didn’t.
Minerva swallowed against the growing knot in her throat. She could already picture the perfectly designed nurseries he described, complete with stiff-backed nannies and children who learned to curtsy before they could walk. Would there be room for laughter in such a life? For love? The image was stifling, a gilded cage she had no means to escape from.
Lord Gillies merely chuckled, as if the very idea of her concerns amused him. “Not at all,” he replied. “I have already made arrangements to consult with the finest architects. You won’t need to worry about a thing, my dear.”
My dear. The endearment made her skin prickle, not with warmth, but with a sense of dread. She swallowed her growing discomfort, her hands tightening around the folds of her skirt as they continued down the path.
“And you,” he continued, glancing at her with a self-satisfied smile, “shall become the perfect hostess. Our social calendar will be quite full—dinner parties, balls, hunting excursions. You will be admired by all, a model of grace and elegance.”
Minerva’s heart clenched. It all felt so cold, so calculated. “Our social calendar?” she echoed, attempting to keep her voice from trembling.
“Yes, of course,” he said, not picking up on the strain in her voice. “We have an image to uphold, after all. We will be the very epitome of respectability and influence, the talk of all London.
Together, we will secure a legacy that will be remembered for generations.”
Minerva took a steadying breath, her gaze fixed on the path ahead. The leaves rustled gently in the breeze, a stark contrast to the turmoil in her heart. “And what of... happiness?” she asked, her voice barely more than a whisper.
Lord Gillies paused, as if the question had caught him off guard. He looked at her with mild confusion, his brows knitting together. “Happiness?” he repeated, as though the concept were foreign. “Happiness is derived from fulfilling one’s duty and achieving success in society. Surely, you understand that.”
Minerva’s shoulders sagged, and she felt the weight of inevitability pressing down on her. Was this truly all there was for her? A life of duty, devoid of passion or choice? She forced a smile. “Of course,” she murmured. The words tasted like ashes.
Lord Gillies resumed his confident stride, oblivious to the turmoil within her. “Exactly,” he said, his voice bright. “We must always be mindful of our responsibilities, of the image we present to the world.”
Minerva barely heard him. Her thoughts had turned inward, to the dreams she had dared for a few days—dreams of a love that was fierce and true, of a partnership based on more than mere convenience. But those dreams seemed childish now, far out of reach. She had been a fool to think she could have more.
They walked in silence for a moment, and then he continued. “By the way,” Lord Gillies added, his voice lowering conspiratorially, “did you hear about the Duke of Colburn? He’s been the subject of all manner of scandalous rumors. It is a good thing you have chosen a more respectable match.”
At the mention of the Duke of Colburn, Minerva’s breath hitched, a rush of warmth blooming in her chest despite her efforts to suppress it. His name was a forbidden melody, one she had tried desperately to forget. And yet, it lingered, soft and insistent, pulling her thoughts away from the man beside her. Respectability. Stability. Duty. These were the things she was supposed to want. So why did they feel so empty?
When Minerva finally had enough, she came to a halt, her hand clenched around the folds of her gown. The tension that had been simmering inside her finally bubbled to the surface. She turned to Lord Gillies, her voice steady but laced with frustration. “Lord Gillies,” she said, interrupting his monologue about future guest lists and potential alliances. “We are not even married yet. Shouldn’t we consider, perhaps, whether these plans are ones we both agree upon?”
“Agree?” Lord Gillies repeated, a faint crease forming between his brows. “I do not see the need for debate, Lady Minerva. These plans are logical, efficient, and beneficial to us both.”
Minerva straightened, refusing to let his dismissiveness cow her. “And what if I do not find them beneficial?” she asked, her voice steady despite the storm brewing in her chest. “Do I not have a say in my own future?”
He stopped, looking genuinely puzzled, as if the very idea that she might have an opinion on her own future had never occurred to him. “Oh, yes,” he said with a casual wave of his hand. “That reminds me.”
Minerva blinked, confused by the abrupt shift in his demeanor. But before she could gather her thoughts, Lord Gillies stepped forward, his expression bright with self-assurance. In one smooth, practiced motion, he dropped to one knee, right there on the gravel path, his posture so formal that it felt almost absurd. He took her hand in his, but there was no warmth, no tenderness in the gesture.
Around them, the murmurs of passersby grew louder, a mixture of curiosity and amusement rippling through the crowd. Minerva felt their eyes on her, hot and intrusive, as if she were an actress in a play she had not auditioned for. The realization struck her with cold clarity: this was not a moment of intimacy—it was a performance.
“Lady Minerva Bellington,” he began, his voice as composed and unfeeling as if he were asking about the weather. “Will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”
Minerva’s mouth fell open in shock. His proposal lacked any hint of emotion, any sense of true feeling. It was as though he were offering her a cup of tea and inquiring if she would prefer sugar or milk. The words sounded rehearsed, transactional, devoid of the kind of vulnerability she had once foolishly hoped for.
