Page 2 of Make You Wish You Were Dead
My mother walks towards me and wraps her arms around me. I hear her sniffling as she hugs me.
"You're okay," she whispers in my ear. "I'll find out who did this to you."
"I'm going to kill this son of a bitch." I hear my father mutter.
Who?
My mom lets go of me and she sits down next to me on the bed. "Are you okay? Do you need anything?"
I need to know what happened. I need to know if what happened was a dream or not.
I shake my head 'no'.
My father walks closer to me. "Someone at the gala found you outside on the balcony laying down. He thought you fainted, so he brought you to the hospital and the hospital called us."
"I'm going to get the doctor and call in Aria and Thalia," my grandmother said before walking out of the room.
I look at my mother and father but don't say anything.
I can't.
It's like there is a ball stuck in my throat as I try to hold back any tears I have.
"The doctor will help us figure out what happened. While you were asleep, she took some tests on you and also gave you an IV drip to bring your strength back up," my mother explained.
After a few minutes of saying nothing to one another and my parents just staring at me, the doctor walks in with a file and my grandmother, Thalia, and Aria behind her.
"Hello, Jane. How are you?"
I don't answer her but she walks closer to me, and I just look up at her waiting for her to tell me what happened.
What happened? What's wrong with me?
"I want you to know I'm not going to hurt you, Jane. You're safe here," the doctor says and she looks at my parents before looking back at me.
Tell me what the fuck happened.
"While you were sleeping, I did some tests on you to see why you fainted so suddenly. Your blood pressure was normal and so was your heart rate. But while I did some tests, I saw some bruises on your thighs and arms. I even saw some bruises on your neck and chest. And when I checked your bottom, I saw blood."
The ball in my throat grows bigger and I feel as if I'm going to choke.
Tears start to form in my eyes as I connect the dots.
I look at my mom and I see tears running down her face.
Tell me this is a dream. Please tell me this isn't real.
"Now I know this is really hard for you to hear. So, if you want, I can always come back later to discuss what happens next."
I look away from my mom and look at the doctor. I shake my head 'no' wanting her to continue.
Tell me. Give me the harsh reality, please.
"Well, good news is that you have no infections or HIV. And the other news is that I am not sure if you will be pregnant or not and I don't know if they used a condom." The doctor looks at my parents. "But if you notice anything strange or any symptoms then give me a call immediately." I already know my parents are nodding their heads. The doctor looks back down at me. "Jane, I know this is a hard thing for someone to hear. And I want you to know that so many people are here for you. I will give you a helpline number in case you want to speak to someone about this."
I don't nod my head or say anything to her. She asks to speak to my parents outside of the room. My mom kisses my forehead before leaving with my dad and the doctor.
Thalia sits down next to me on the bed while Aria and my Grandma go out of the room with the doctor.
