Page 68 of Make You Wish You Were Dead
"Hey, honey," Andrew says and my stomach churns. "What are you doing up so late?" I walk away from the pantry and take off the wrapper, still ignoring him. "You know, I think with the right motivation you would be able to talk, Jane. I know you talk to my brother. I'm honestly surprised that your dad hasn't figured out what's going on between the two of you yet."
I want to be the one to tell my father what's going on between Rowan and I. But I am scared that my dad will hurt Rowan.
I love him.
I found out yesterday when we were hanging out in the pool. I swear I felt like I was floating or in heaven when I finally said that I loved him in my head.
He makes me feel like heaven and good things exist.
I love how he makes me feel. I love how he makes me see things. I love how he holds me every time he touches me. I love how he touches me.
I'm so in love with him, every time I think about him I feel my heart rate speed up and the tingle in my stomach.
"Hello. Did you hear what I said?" Andrew asks, bringing me back into reality, erasing the image of Rowan I had in my head. I look at Andrew and furrow my eyebrows at him. "My brother is really obsessed with you. I never knew that he liked the quiet ones." He tilts his head as he looks at me. "He has always hated women because they were a distraction for him and it just made him think of his mother and how she was never there for him. He never really knew how to handle a woman's love because he never had a woman's love."
And you did?
"Do you love my brother?" Andrew asks.
Why would he want to know that?
"You can talk to me. I won't tell anyone, Jane." Andrew puts his hand on mine and I flinch before looking down. When I look down at his hands I feel as if time has stopped. For a second I feel like my world might end. I feel the blood in my body freeze as I see a crown tattoo, a very familiar crown tattoo, on his hand. "Something wrong,honey?"
"Something wrong, honey?" he said, smiling at me.
"No, nothing is wrong. I just spaced out. You never told me your name by the way," I said to him and he chuckled lightly.
"That's right. Sorry for my manners." He brings a hand out to me making me look down at his hand that has the crown tattoo. "Andrew. Andrew Valentino."
Andrew Valentino.
Andrew Valentino.
Rowan's brother.
He ruined my life, made me weak, and corrupted my mind.
"Well, it's getting late, isn't it. Think I should hit the hay," Andrew says, as he gives me a small wicked smile and lets go of me. "Have a good night, Jane." Andrew then walks past me, brushing his shoulder against mine.
"Now, Jane, if you tell anyone about what happened tonight, I will make sure to kill you slowly to the point where you can feel all of the torture I bring down on you. I will break you even more than I already did. You understand that?"
Thirty Six
Rowan
This morningwhen I woke up I didn't find Jane in bed. I looked all over that house for her but didn't find her.
I was freaking out for a good thirty minutes and was about to call Cole but then I got a text from Jane saying she was sleeping in her parent's room.
I asked why but she never answered.
I haven't seen her all day and I'm getting worried.
I figured that maybe she just needs some space so I'll give her that until the end of the day.
I walk outside and head to the gym that is located in the back of the backyard when I see Jane sitting on one of the benches that is in the garden area of the backyard.
I look at the gym.
