The sky is a bright, vivid blue.
And I… have no idea what to do with myself.
Quackers hops into the water.
“What do you think?” I ask the duck. “Should I get a pet?”
She lets out a mild quack.
“Yeah, but you aren’t a pet. You’re a… neighbor.”
She paddles away, giving me her back.
I tap my shoes against the ground.
I really am allergic to cats. And dogs seem fun, but I’ve never had one.
Quackers turns back around, and I toss a pea into the water.
She dives after it.
I toss some more as I think about my options.
But that’s the problem. There are too many options.
I have money now. And not just likeenough savings to cover me for a few months. LikeI have every option available to memoney.
I could work part-time and earn just enough to help with expenses while giving myself something to do.
I could work full-time and make enough that I don’t use any of the money from Uncle Jack.
I could use the money to pay for a college degree. No loans needed.
But… I don’t have the first idea of what I’d go to school for. And, if I’m being honest with myself, I don’t want to go to school. I didn’t really like it the first time around, and doing it by choice seems like the worst choice of them all.
I toss another pea into the water.
“You don’t know how good you have it.”
Quackers chomps the pea.
“Okay…” I toss another pea. “What do I like to do?”
In general, I’m easy to entertain. But the things I enjoy…
Ethan.
My mind just keeps going back to Ethan.
I enjoy life when we’re together.
All of it.
The conversations and the expressions he makes. The sex.
I snort.
Sex with Ethan is not a viable profession.