Page 46 of Bratva Bride
Ivan
ItfeltlikeIwas writing a dissertation on DDlg dynamics. I wondered if it would have made my old economics professors proud.
Horrified, more like.
Hard to tell when you were reading "Trauma-Informed Age Regression: A Therapeutic Framework" next to "How to Be a Good Daddy Dom When You're Emotionally Constipated" from Reddit user DaddyIssues420.
I'd started with academic papers—peer-reviewed studies on caregiver dynamics in adult relationships, the psychology of age regression as trauma response, statistical analyses of power exchange in therapeutic contexts. Safe, clinical territory where I could pretend this was just another strategic problem to solve. But those led to psychology blogs, which led to support forums, which led to first-person accounts that made my chest tight with recognition.
"My Little needs structure but panics at strict rules because her mom used rules as weapons."
"Going into little space isn't about sex. It's about feeling safe enough to be vulnerable."
"The first time my Daddy made me cheese sandwiches with the bread cut into stars, I cried for an hour."
Each post, each comment, each shared experience added another note to my growing document. Three spreadsheets now—one for rules frameworks, one for common triggers to avoid, one for activities that helped Littles feel safe. Color-coded. Cross-referenced. The kind of obsessive documentation that had made me invaluable to the bratva's financial operations but now served a different purpose entirely.
Helping Anya heal.
My phone buzzed with a text from Dmitry: "I bet you’re still up. Stop overthinking and just talk to her."
I’d spoken to him and Alexei last night. They’d shared useful information and advice. Teased me a little, of course, but with love.
My brothers had both navigated this territory before me—Alexei with Clara's need for firm boundaries, Dmitry with Eva's bratty testing. They'd made mistakes, learned, adjusted. I'd watched from the outside, filing away information I'd thought I'd never need.
Now I needed everything.
Another message, this one from Alexei: "Structure without suffocation. Rules with flexibility. Lead but listen. You've got this, brother."
They were trying to help, but their dynamics weren't Anya's. Clara wanted strict rules and clear punishments. Eva needed to push boundaries and be caught. Anya needed—
What did she need?
I scrolled through my notes again. Safety. Predictability without rigidity. Someone to make decisions when the world got too big. Comfort objects—Peanut already fulfilling that role. Physical care shown through actions more than words. Space to be young without being weak.
The coffee maker chimed, and I realized I'd been researching for six straight hours. My eyes burned. My back ached from hunching over the laptop. But I had a framework now. Not perfect, not complete, but a starting point. Something we could build together.
I stood, stretched, and moved to the kitchen with new purpose. Breakfast required thought today. Not my usual black coffee and whatever was convenient, but something deliberate. Something that said I care about you without terrifying her with the weight of that care.
Oatmeal. Comfort food, according to twelve different Little forums. But not plain—that was patronizing. Honey from the farmer's market in Union Square, the expensive stuff I'd bought on impulse last week. Cinnamon from the spice shop Clara had recommended. Strawberries that needed washing, hulling, slicing.
The knife moved through red flesh with precision while I considered presentation. Too elaborate would seem performative. Too simple might seem careless. I settled on arranging the strawberry slices into a smiley face on top of the oatmeal—something I'd rather die than do normally, but the forums said visual care mattered to Littles. Small gestures that showed thought.
When the guest room door opened, my entire nervous system shifted to high alert. Soft footsteps on hardwood. The whisper of fabric. Then Anya appeared in the doorway, and my chest did something complicated that probably required medical attention.
She wore my t-shirt still—the black one that hit her mid-thigh, making her look smaller, softer. Her hair was messy from actual sleep, not the rigid control of insomnia. And tucked under her left arm, carried with careful casualness like she was testing whether this was allowed, was Peanut.
The elephant's gray velvet caught morning light, and Anya's fingers absently stroked one ear while she hovered in the doorway. Waiting for permission to exist in this space. Always waiting for permission.
"Good morning, kotyonok," I said gently, the endearment feeling more natural now. Like something that belonged to us.
Her shoulders dropped slightly at the warmth in my voice. She padded toward the kitchen island where I'd set her breakfast, bare feet silent on cold floors.
"You made a face," she said, staring at the strawberry smile on her oatmeal with something like wonder. "With the berries."
"Strawberries have better structural integrity than other fruits for food art," I said, aiming for casual and probably missing by miles.
She settled onto the barstool, Peanut placed carefully on the counter where she could see him, and took a tentative sip of coffee. Her eyes closed briefly—relief at not having to pretend to like it black anymore.
