Page 35 of Should've Been Us
“While you’re using me, you look at me, Lu. You don’t close your eyes. You don’t look away. You see me. You don’t pretend I’m him. I’m never going to be him. So, see me. Be here, tonight, withme.”
Lulu’s dark eyes went soft at his demand and his heart lurched in his chest when he saw her finally, finally, begin to understandhim.
That was his truth. The one thing he wouldn’t and couldn’t budge on. Not with her. Not after all this time. He wanted her. Hell, he’d always wanted her. But he wouldn’t be a stand-in for the man she couldn’t have. He wouldn’t let her pretend he was someone else, not even if he thought he’d die without her touch. He wouldn’t let her touch him and be thinking ofDerek.
“I know who I’m with, Connor.” Lulu spoke softly, her eyes never leaving his as she closed the space between them, “You were right, okay? I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you. You turned everything I thought I knew upside down and the only thing I know for sure is that I want you. You. Arrogant, annoying, pain in the ass, so sexy it hurts to look at you sometimes. You. I wantyou.”
His heart ached, “Then I’myours.”
Lulu stopped just in front of him, her dark eyes serious as she looked up at him, “You really mean that don’tyou?”
“Yes.”
She tiptoed up, her hands going around his neck as she pulled him down to her and kissed him. Eyes open. Looking at him. She took his mouth and whatever pieces of his heart that hadn’t already been hers, she took themtoo.
“Kiss me, Connor.” She whispered against his lips, “Kiss me like you kissed me earlier. Kiss me like nobody but you has ever kissed me. That’s how it feels when you touch me… Iike there’s never been anyoneelse.”
“Fuck. Lu.” He groaned as his control snapped and he hauled her into his arms the way he knew shewanted.
Lulu moaned when he took her mouth. Her eyes drifted shut but he let her get away with it. His own wanted to shut too. He wanted to bask in the feel of having her in his arms, of knowing her taste. She was like a drug working its way through his system, making him high even as he drowned inher.
He slid his hands to her ass and lifted her easily. She wrapped her long, graceful legs around him and his cock ached. He could feel her heat through the thin shorts she was wearing. He needed more than just the tease of her this time. He needed to feel her, touch her, tasteher.
He ripped his mouth away and growled when she rocked her hips against him, “Now? Now is when you decide to start wearing clothes in front ofme?”
Lulu’s laugh was sweet against his neck before her teeth scored him, “You’re wearing too many clothes too. Take themoff.”
“Yourwish…”
“My command.” She giggled again as he dropped her cute little ass onto the dresser. Her dark eyes were hooded when he pulled back enough to reach for the hem of his shirt. He dragged it over his head and dropped it to the floor and then started to reach for hers to do the same but her touch on his skin took his breath away, “You’re sobeautiful.”
“I think that’s the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me.” He smirked when she shot him a dirtylook.
“Just returning thefavor.”
“Ah, so you did hear me call you beautiful? Good to know.” He whipped her shirt off and hissed a breath at what was underneath. No playful underwear. No sexy lingerie. Nothing but smooth, creamy, hot skin. He palmed her perky little breasts, running his thumbs over the hard littlenubs.
“Con.” Her back arched, pressing her breasts into his hands, “Please.”
“Please what?” He teased as he plucked at her nipples. “What do you want from me,baby?”
“I…” Her voice caught when he pinched her nipple, “I want you to do to me whatever it is you do to those groupies of yours that makes them go all dreamy overyou.”
He chuckled, “You want the dream packagehuh?”
“Yes.”
“No.” He smirked when she glared at him, “You’re not ready for thatyet.”
“You son ofa…”
He ducked his head and sucked on her pretty pink nipples. Lulu’s cursing turned to a moan and he groaned when her hands came up and gripped his hair. He licked and sucked her perfect little breast and when she tried to steer him by tugging on his hair, he only wentslower.
He was rewarded with more cursing and he smiled against her hotflesh.
So she’d heard the stories had she? About what a good time he was in the bedroom? He hadn’t thought for a second that she hadn’t. Hell, if anything he’d wanted her to hear those little bits of gossip. He could be an arrogant asshole. She was right about that. But he’d earned every single one of those stories by being a selfless, patient and dotinglover.
Did he like being in control? Hell yeah. But being in control meant taking care of the person sharing his bed even if it was only for a fewhours.
