Page 27 of Should've Been Us
“Don’t what? Tell you for the millionth time that you’re wasting your life pining for a man that doesn’t wantyou?”
“Don’t.” She repeated but her voice caught and he refused to drop thisnow.
“How about I tell you something you don’t already know? This man does. I want you and I’m fucking sick of pretending otherwise because you’re not ready to let go of him. I want you. I’ve always wanted you. Maybe I should’ve told you that before now. Maybe it would have helped you let go of him sooner and we might have gotten a chance before all of this but… I’m telling you now. I want you. I want all of you. The good and the bad and the crazy. That’s the truth so please see me. I’m standing right in front of you. Seeme.”
Lulu was still shaking her head. Confusion and disbelief warred on her face. She looked at him as if she’d never laid eyes on him before and it nearly killed him when she spoke so softly it sliced like aknife.
“You don’t want me. That’s not true. You don’t even like me. You fight with meand…”
Connor couldn’t take it another second. Being this close to her. Feeling her smooth skin beneath his palm. Seeing the look of confusion on her pretty face and hearing her tell him that she didn’t believe what he was saying, that she didn’t believe what he felt was real, it was toomuch.
He was done. So done. He’d told himself that he would wait until she was ready to hear what he had to say but she’d pushed him too far this time. He’d told her and she still didn’t believe him. So he’d show herinstead.
He tightened his grip on her, pulling her against the length of his body, and kissed her. Hard, it was too hard. She gasped against him at the contact but he didn’t give her a chance to push him away. He slid his tongue along the seam of her mouth, tasting her as her lips parted and the small little moan she made shred every last bit of hissanity.
Her taste was like nothing he’d ever experienced. He’d wondered. He’d dreamed. But he’d never expected this. She tasted like sunshine and honey, sweet like candy, and he wanted to inhaleher.
His tongue stroked deep as he raised a hand and twisted it in her long, dark hair, pulling until she tilted her head back to give him more space. Her hands came up to his chest and his breath caught as he waited for her to shove him away. Instead, her arms traced up and over his shoulders, wrapping around his neck and when she pulled him even closer he groaned and shoved her backwards, pressing her against the wall as he took her mouth with all of the passionate emotions she’d always evoked inhim.
Love and hate. Fire and ice. He wanted to punish her and pleasure her all at the same time. His feelings for her had always been so conflicting but they were strong and now that he’d set them free, his head spun with the wonder of what it felt like to kiss this woman that he’d wanted in his arms for solong.
She didn’t rejecthim.
She kissed him back. She held him close. She moaned as he meshed their bodies together, running his hands over all the warm flesh she’d left open to him. She moved against him as he rocked his hips into her and stroked his tongue in and out of her mouth in the most filthy, suggestive way. She was right there withhim.
Lulu was his in thatmoment.
She was liquid heat in his arms; all movement and need as she grasped at him, pulling him closer, rubbing her body against him. He slid his hand down to her ass and shifted her slightly, just enough that he could notch himself between her legs and she opened for him. She wrapped her calf around his, arching her hips so that he could press his aching cock against the mound between herlegs.
They both groaned at thecontact.
She was wet. He could feel her heat and dampness through the thin barrier of her panties as he slid his hand around her hip and down between them. He wanted to touch her. Needed to touch her. Needed so much more of her, all of her, everything she would givehim.
But just as he was finding the edge of her panties, about to slip his fingers inside and feel all of that hot, wet heat that was just for him, his phone buzzed in his backpocket.
He jerked, surprised by the vibration and the sound. Lulu snapped back from his kiss so hard her head collided with the wall and she winced. He automatically loosened his hold on her hair, reaching up and back to stroke the spot that no doubt stung, but he knew as soon as she tensed that the moment wasover.
The real world had interrupted them and she had slipped from hisgrasp.
Thinking not to upset her, he casually stepped back. He removed his hands from her and felt the loss of her heat. He took a deep breath, trying to put himself back together, to figure out what to say or do next but when he met her gaze again his heartcrumbled.
Lulu looked scared. Of him? Of this situation? Of his feelings or of hers? He didn’t know but he didn’t likeit.
She’d been right there with him and now she was gone. Her eyes were glassy and distant. He couldn’t read anything she was thinking. Worse, she was shaking slightly and looking at him with that gaze of confusion and warinessagain.
More than anything he wanted to pull her back into his arms and finish what he’d started. But this wasn’t the end of anything. It was the beginning. And now wasn’t the time for it considering she was still looking at him as if she was lost in a foreign land without a map or a guide for the language and his phone was still ringing in his backpocket.
“Connor?” Lulu raised her fingers to her lips and he almost kissed her again when he heard his name in that sweet, slightly huskyvoice.
Her beautiful mouth was red and swollen from the way he’d taken it. It was always lush, pouty and full, but knowing he was the one that had stained it red and left it glossy with moisture sent a surge of pride and possessiveness through him like nothing he’d everfelt.
That mouth belonged to him now but he’d have to wait to claim the rest ofher.
“Go and fix the damage I did to your hair and makeup.” He attempted to smooth his own hair back into place and sighed, “And for the love of God, put on someclothes.”
“Con…” She shook her head, her glassy eyes regaining focus and that mouth he loved so much beginning to thin with what he knew would be another argument that they didn’t have time for rightnow.
“We’re going to be late as it is. You know that’s them calling. They’re wondering where we are and what we’re doing. Go and get dressed before they come looking for us,okay?”
