Page 91 of Because You're Mine
“How strange,” Andrew commented lightly, “that for once I’m the sober one, while you’re half-seas under.” During the past few months Andrew had curtailed his drinking to an occasional glass of wine. The alcoholic ruddiness had left his cheeks, and he had dropped a great deal of weight, looking fit and lean for the first time since his teenaged years. He had also given up gambling and had arranged to pay back his debts, with interest. It even seemed that he had managed to build a new, closer relationship with Rochester, who had softened a bit since the scare of his son’s “death.”
“I’m not drunk enough yet,” Logan muttered, flinching as he heard a smothered cry from within the room.
Andrew looked uncomfortably at the door. “You’re wound as tight as a watch,” he said. “Cheer up, Jimmy. Women survive this sort of thing every day. Why don’t you come downstairs with me? I don’t mind telling you that I’m tired of trying to make small talk with your in-laws, respectable souls that they are. You should distract yourself by playing host for a little while.”
“I’d rather crawl through an acre of broken glass.”
A wry, wondering smile crossed Andrew’s face. “The great Logan Scott, wearing his heart on his sleeve. That’s a sight I never expected to see.”
Logan was too miserable to reply. He lifted his gaze to the portrait on the wall, the Orsini painting of Madeline that had earned adulation and rapturous reviews from every notable critic in London. The artist had portrayed her seated before a window, an elbow resting lightly on a walnut table as she stared dreamily into the distance. The white gown she wore was circumspect, except for a sleeve that dipped coyly to reveal the curve of one pale shoulder.
By painting Madeline in profile, Orsini had revealed the delicate purity of her features, yet he had given the bare length of her throat, arms, and shoulder a lush quality that made the viewer aware of the velvety texture of her skin. The portrait was a disturbing study in contrasts: innocent yet sensuous, her face serene and her eye touched with a mischievous glint…Madeline as a fallen angel.
“Lovely,” Andrew remarked, following Logan’s gaze. “One would never suspect from looking at this painting that she can be as stubborn as a goat.” He smiled at Logan. “She’ll pull through this in good form, Jimmy. If I were still a betting man, I’d put all my chips on it.”
Logan nodded slightly, his gaze locked on the painting. The past few months had been filled with the most intense happiness he had ever known. Madeline had become everything to him, filling every empty space in his life, banishing all the bitterness and pain and replacing them with joy. As much as he had loved her before, it was nothing compared to now. He would have walked through hell to spare her one moment’s suffering. The knowledge that she had to endure the agony of childbirth alone, that he could do nothing for her, was driving him mad.
All at once he heard a baby crying. The shrill noise caused Logan to shoot to his feet. Chalk-white, he waited for what seemed like an hour, though in reality less than a minute passed.
The door opened, and Julia stood there wearing an expression of weary happiness. “Both mother and child are doing splendidly. Come in, Papa, and have a look at your beautiful daughter.”
Logan stared at her uncomprehendingly. “Is Maddy…” He stopped and tried to moisten his lips; his mouth was too dry.
Julia smiled and gently touched his cheek. “She did very well, Logan. She’s fine.”
“Congratulations, brother,” Andrew said, taking the brandy bottle from Logan’s nerveless grip. “Give that to me. You don’t need it anymore.”
Scarcely aware of what was happening, Logan strode into the room.
Wistfully Andrew stared at the half-empty brandy bottle in his hand and gave it to Julia. “Here,” he muttered. “I don’t trust myself with it. Thank God I still have plenty of other vices to indulge in.”
Barely aware of the hearty congratulations of the doctor and midwife, Logan went to the bed and sat beside Madeline. Her eyes half-opened, and she smiled at him.
“Maddy,” he said, his voice cracking. He took her free hand and brought it to his mouth, fervently pressing his lips into her palm.
Reading the anguished relief on his face, Madeline murmured soothingly and pulled him down to her. He pressed his face to her breasts and made an inarticulate sound.
“I’m all right,” she murmured, stroking his hair. “It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be.”
His lips found hers, and as he tasted her familiar sweet warmth, his panic faded. “I’ve been as scared as hell,” he said when their lips parted. “I don’t ever want to go through this again.”
“I’m afraid you’ll have to, darling. You’ll want her to have a brother someday.”
Logan stared at the tiny form held in the crook of Madeline’s arm. The baby was wrapped in linen and cotton, her small pink face wearing a perplexed pucker. There was a patch of downy chestnut hair on her head. Logan touched the silken strands wonderingly. “Hello,” he whispered, brushing his lips over the baby’s forehead.
“She’s beautiful, isn’t she?” Madeline asked.
“Exquisite,” he said, staring at the miraculous creation, and his gaze returned to Madeline. “But she doesn’t eclipse her mother.”
In spite of her discomfort and exhaustion, Madeline managed a chuckle. “Silly man. No woman looks beautiful immediately after childbirth.”
“I could stare at you for hours…weeks…months…and never get tired.”
“You’ll have to do it while I’m sleeping,” she said with a yawn, blinking like a small owl.
“Rest,” Logan said. “Both of you.” His caressing gaze moved over his wife and infant daughter. “I’ll watch over you.”
“Love me?” Madeline asked with a faint smile, and yawned again.
