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He looks at me as I approach and in his eyes I can tell he knows something’s happened to change the dynamics of what we have.
“Hi baby, everything okay?” he asks, studying my face.
“I just got a job at Juilliard,” I answer, unable to keep the quiver out of my voice.
Our eyes lock, and even though he smiles his eyes look exactly the way they did ten years ago when I broke up with him.
Sad, and like he just lost everything.
Chapter 45
Logan
I feel like an asshole.
That’s the only thing that could describe me right now.
The asshole. The asshole people often class me as.
I call myself that too, but deep down I’m not.I have a hard exterior but there’s a chink in my armor and it’s her.
Quinn Cambray.
She makes me want to be selfish.When I’m with her I want her for myself.Tonight I barely wanted to have this family dinner because it robbed me of time spent with her.
Now there’s this. The thing I feared and shouldn’t have because it’s fantastic news for her.
Juilliard of all the places too.How could I not be happy for her?
“Oh my God, Quinn,” I mutter and she lifts her shoulders.
She hasn’t stopped looking at me, and it’s almost like this could be ten years ago when she broke up with me.The difference being one event was a lie, the other is truth.
It’s reality that’s caught up with us.
“Baby, that’s fantastic,” I tell her, taking hold of her shoulders.
She hugs me though and holds me, grasping on to my shirt like she doesn’t want to let go.
I hold her the same way too because I don’t want to let go, ever.I love her and I know I won’t love anybody else the way I love her.
“Everything okay in here?” Heather says at the door and we pull apart.“I didn’t want to sit there like a big fat heifer eating more food.You guys okay.”
“Yes,” I answer.
“I just got a job offer from Juilliard,” Quinn tells Heather with pride.
When Heather screams and runs over to her to give her a big hug the news really hits me.
I know Quinn will appreciate the excitement because mother number one barely opened her mouth to say well done when she got accepted to study at Juilliard.Heather on the other hand is all pride and tears.
Soon everybody else joins us and the whole house starts talking about it.The rest of the night is filled with it, but there’s a noticeable shift in the mood between Quinn and me when they leave.
We don’t talk about it, instead we have sex and it’s the first time it feels like just sex.Like we’re using it to escape talking.
If I didn’t care I wouldn’t mind, but because I do I can’t help thinking about what’s to come in the next few weeks.
The next day is the same and the day after would be the same too except I have to work late.
