Page 30 of Spoiling Lillian
“Smart. Be careful. She’s young and…”
“I know. She’s fucking innocent.” I run a hand through my hair as I pace my living room. “The truth is that with every passing day, it becomes more apparent she has a Little side that needs to be nurtured. Neither of us can predict the future and know how young her Little is or how much time she will like to spend in that headspace, but I find myself wanting to be what she needs.”
“You have the bug.”
“I guess. Instead of being turned off by her antics, sassy side, and pouty self, I find myself grinning like a loon,” I admit.
Camden chuckles again. “Man, you really have it bad. I like it. I’m glad. She deserves a good man in her life.”
“A sadist,” I remind him.
“Eh, you’ll figure out what works. Follow your instincts. She’s testing you by being sassy. It’s new to her, too. You’ll have to learn together what works and doesn’t work. If she’s getting bold enough to roll her eyes and cock her hip, I’d say it’s time to give her what she craves. Boundaries. Rules. Discipline—in whatever form that looks like. I know there are sadistic ways you can punish a naughty Little girl that have nothing to do with impact play.”
It’s me who chuckles this time. “Yeah, I proved that earlier tonight. I think both our worlds tipped a bit.”
“Go with your gut. Watch her reactions. You’ll know if you’re giving her what she needs.”
“I’m not used to scening outside of Surrender. I’m also not used to doing so without negotiating every detail. You age-play folks live by slightly different rules.”
“True. We don’t negotiate every detail.”
“I’m gathering that’s partly because most of what you do doesn’t include the possibility of physical injury, but there’s still emotional damage that can be done. I never want to do something that would harm Lillian in any way.”
“You’re right. And Littles need a different kind of care than the average submissive. I promise it’s something you’ll feel out together. Even though I’ve been a Daddy for a long time, like other submissives, all Littles are different. What might work for one would be totally off the table for another. In a sense, forging into this territory with Lillian is exactly what any Daddy Dom would have to do. She wouldn’t be able to verbalize what she craves even if you had thirty years of Daddy experience. She doesn’t know. I bet you’re more suited to Daddying someone than you give yourself credit for.”
I start pacing, listening carefully.
“As a sadist, you’ve had to learn to read people better than any other Dom or Top. No matter how many times a submissive might tell you they want to be beaten until they’re bruised and perhaps even bloody, that doesn’t mean you go into the scene without watching for signs of distress. I’ve watched you top many people, Bryson. You’re an excellent Dom. That’s why I asked you to help me with Simone. I know you’re good at reading cues. You’re incredibly attentive. It won’t be different with Lillian, and she’ll benefit from that diligence.”
“Shit. You’re right. Never thought of it that way.” A huge weight lifts off my chest. He’s totally fucking right.
“Try not to overthink everything. You don’t need to pause every five minutes to discuss every detail with her. It’s too jarring for a Little. It will pull her out of her Little headspace. You’re not planning to beat her, gag her, or tie her to a chair. She’s always going to have her mouth free to protest, but she won’t need it because you’re fucking good at reading people, and you’ll know when whatever you’re doing isn’t working.”
I blow out a long, relieved breath. “Thank you. I needed the pep talk. This is territory I wasn’t expecting to enter in my life.”
“Sometimes the unexpected happens, and all we can do is roll with it.”
“I’m going to do everything in my power to be careful with her heart, Camden. But…”
“If it doesn’t work out, we’ll be here to wipe her tears, Bryson. I promise.”
“Thanks again.”
“No problem. Any time. I’m humbled to share my opinion. And Bryson?”
“Yeah?”
“You should call her sometime when you’re near her phone.”
“What?” I’m so confused.
Camden chuckles. “You’ll get a kick out of her ringtone.”
“Interesting…”
“Yep. Do it. I better go check on Simone. Oh, one more thing. Try timeouts.”
I grin. Timeouts. Who knew? I’m looking forward to experimenting with that type of punishment. Neither Lillian nor I have any experience with age play, but we’re intelligent adults. We can forge our own path without anyone getting hurt.
