Page 31 of Surrender
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Sloan: I liked seeing you touch yourself.
Gareth: I liked having you watch me touch myself.
Sloan: Why?
Gareth: Because I liked pleasing you. Pleasing you pleased me. It’s a full circle act, you see. Did you like having the control?
Sloan: Yes.
Gareth: Why?
Sloan: Because I’ve never had control before. It made me feel strong. I don’t feel strong often.
Gareth: See? You’re getting this.
Sloan: Why did you like it?
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Gareth: Because it allowed me to not be the person everyone depends on. It let me forget all the rubbish in my head and just feel. So much of my life has been tied to my past and my future. Having you in charge helped me stay in the present.
Sloan: What happened in your past?
Gareth: See, that’s a question someone would ask if they were in a relationship.
Sloan: OMG, you’re right! Don’t tell me!
Gareth: Don’t worry. I won’t.
Sloan: So you really have no expectations?
Gareth: None, except that I want you.
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Sloan: Gareth, why do you want me?
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Gareth: I want the side of you that you don’t show to anyone else. You’ve shown it to me once and I can’t get it out of my head.
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Sloan: If I agree to this, no one can know.
Gareth: Okay…
Sloan: I mean it. I don’t want to end up in the papers or have people know that I’m sleeping with a client. I have a reputation to uphold. Can I trust you to keep our relationship completely private?
