Page 50 of The Secret Club
“Can you tap out at any point? Using your safe word?”
“I’m sure I would be able to. Management wouldn’t let this go ahead if they thought any harm would come to the playmate. The rules are, no lasting injury or marking on their bodies left from the jobs. They’d do some sort of prorated pay if I had to leave early but I know I’d be able to leave at any time.”
“I’m not sure that is giving me peace of mind or not. Are you really considering being locked away for 7 days and being 8 men’s plaything 24/7?”
I swallow.Is this going bad?I wonder. “Yes.”
“I don’t know whether you need to get your head read or if this is a good thing,” James muses. My shoulders lower a little, I hadn’t realised how rigid I had been standing until just then.
“I know it sounds kinda bad; I get that. But I’m looking at it as kind of good. It might be the money aspect for sure but I might even enjoy it.”
“If there was one person who could possibly enjoy it, it would be you. I’d put my money on it.” James gives me a weak smile. Is he coming around to the idea?
“I want to know my sexual limits. I want to see what they are.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of. I don’t know if you’d tell any one of them to stop, I’m not sure you would be prepared to stop at your limits.”
“I think I could. Just because I haven’t with you or any of thejobs doesn’t mean I won’t, it just means nothing so far has pushed me to the edge enough to want to stop.”
James presses his lips together. He’s thinking. I know he never wants to stop me doing anything or worse tell me what to do.
“I don’t want you to make a decision that you might regret, either by doing this job or not doing this job. I want you to consider it. Don’t rush into applying. Sleep on it. Speak to Sophie, see what her advice is and then make a decision. How long is the charity jobs board open for?
“A week.”
“Good, so you have a week to apply.”
“Yes. So you’re saying if I come to my own thought out decision, you will be ok whatever the outcome is?”
“Yes, you have my blessing either way. As long as you believe and trust you are making the right decision for you.”
I feel a spike of excitement flutter through my stomach, but I keep my body still and try not to clap my hands in delight. Keeping my face unmoved is impossible though. I grin back at James. “Thank you.”
“What am I going to do with you, Rose Petal?” he asks playfully. And then in a serious tone, “I don’t know how I am going to be not knowing or checking in with you for a whole week.” My stomach lurches. That is going to be hard and painful, not calling and chatting. Not checking in that we’re going ok. But it’ll be ten times worse for James, he’ll have to continue his day to day life knowing I would be locked away somewhere with eight men. It’s hardly a girls’ weekend away to not stress about.
“I’m sorry, I hadn’t considered that.”
“Rosie, if you think you can stomach what those men might have in store for you and actually go through with it. The least I can do is stomach the worry and get through it too.”
24
Monday I’m on reception for a change and not working in Café Marion as usual with Sophie. I have to wait the four hours of my shift until I can go to lunch with her. We meet in the staff room, grab our bags and jump into her Landover to drive to our favourite lunch spot. After chatting about our weekend and more specifically Sophie’s weekend away with Sam, we get onto the subject I’ve been burning to talk to her about.
“So, the charity jobs. Which job are you going for?” I ask brightly, hoping she is not considering the seven day one like I am. All the jobs are on one day (or at least start on the same day) so we can only be successful in one application.
“I keep looking, there are so many of the usual ones. I was thinking of going for something a bit more outside what I usually try like the Medical Play one. As a backup, I also like the sound of the Shibari job, the guy must be new because I’ve never seen Shibari listed before.”
“What is Shibari? I can guess the Medical Play one, well sort of.”
“It’s rope bondage, more specifically Japanese ropebondage. It’s an artform and I’m keen to be strung up and see how that feels.”
“Sounds interesting. Wonder what he’ll do to you when you can’t move?” I giggle.
“Yeah, I wonder indeed.” Sophie giggles and winks at me. “Did you see that big job for seven days? I read it a few times, but I don’t think I’m cut out for that long on a job. I like doing them weekly but to be eight members’ kink toy gives me goosebumps. Eight guys on one booking, sure I can do that. Eight guys for seven days. Ouch. The person who applies to that is going to need a strong stomach, don’t you think? Did you see that one?” Sophie looks up at me as she’s about to tuck into her avocado on toast. My face heats like a furnace in summertime. My cheeks feel like they’re on fire. I am actually embarrassed to admit it. But I don’t need to of course, my face gives it away.
“Roxy! You crazy little sex kitten. You are going to apply for it or have you applied already?” she asks as she puts the first forkful of her lunch into her mouth. I haven’t started on mine. I feel like I am asking for advice on having sex for the first time. My face heats with a mix of humiliation and embarrassment. If Sophie is not even considering the job, what must she think of me if I am interested?
“I-I am thinking about applying. For the money. Maybe a little for the experience. And a tiny bit to see if I can do it.”
