Page 51 of Change My Mind
He laughed harshly. “With you? Not interested.”
Oh.
I don’t know why him saying it so plainly hurt. He was well within his rights to set the boundary. But still, it stung.
“Fine,” I huffed and tried to pull my leg away.
Eli squeezed my thigh gently, and I left it in his lap. “I phrased that badly. If it’s something that you want to explore, then I am happy to give you the safe space to do it, but it will be with fingers and toys only. I had a bad experience topping once, and I’ve never been able to enjoy giving anal sex since, so I don’t do it.”
“Okay, I understand. How about the other way? Say I wanted to fuck you? Is that on the table?”
His fingers gripped my thigh tighter.
“Yes. It’s on the table. Any hard limits for you?”
Several. I took a deep breath and reeled them off.
“No choking, no excessive spanking, no spitting, no watersports. You can either tie my wrists or my ankles; you can’t tie both. No being tied up and blindfolded at the same time. Separately is fine. No overstimulation. When I say I’m done, I mean I am done. You can pull my hair, but you can’tpullit,you know? You can come literally anywhere you want on my body, but you cannot come on my face under any circumstances.” I paused. “I would be open to being penetrated vaginally and anally at the same time, but you either have your fingers, your dick, or a dildo in my vagina at any one time.” Double penetration, another thing to add to the ‘don’t think too much about it’ list. “What about you?”
“No choking, no spanking at all, no excessive scratching, no watersports,” he reeled off quickly.
I looked at Eli in what I could only imagine was total disbelief. “That’s it? Everything else is fair game?” That list was so short. It almost, for a moment, made me feel bad about my extensive list. But, no, boundaries were good.
Eli nodded. “Yeah. But we both reserve the right to add more things, or take them off, if they change.”
“Obviously. Final two rules; let’s keep this between us. People will have opinions, and we don’t need them.”
He hesitated for a moment. “Fair. And your final rule?”
The easiest, most unbreakable rule of them all.
“No falling in love.”
Eli opened his mouth, then rolled his lips together.
“Terms agreed,” he eventually said. Slowly.
“Should we shake on it?” I teased.
“I have a better idea.” His pinky slipped into my underwear, the edge of his nail scratching along my scar.
“What happened to ‘we can’t use sex to mask feelings’?” I asked, while one of my legs slipped off his lap and my foot hit the floor.
“You’re not. And if you don’t want me to go any further, tell me now, but I think sealed with an orgasm is a pretty good way to make this official.”
I shifted my hips, and he rewarded me by brushing his fingers against my clit. “I think I like the sound of that.”
Thirty-Three
ADDIE
Where did you say you were going again?
We’re at BellaDonna
I replied quickly, only a little bit concerned that he was on his phone in the middle of a dinner service.
His response was immediate.
