Page 42 of Change My Mind

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And snacks.

I cracked my bedroom door open, confirming there was no one milling around in one of the shared livingspaces because it was too still out there. I zoomed out of my room straight to the kitchen to get enough food to get me through today and swiped my bag off the floor before returning to the safety of my room.

I unlocked my phone and opened my Rachel chat.

I did something stupid

In true Rachel fashion, she replied immediately.

I’m not sure you’ve ever done a truly stupid thing in your life. You make the rest of us look bad

Well, I am here to tell you that I have done.

Something stupid

Really, quite stupid

Is it dry humping the leg of your neighbour’s brother stupid?

Wait—Rachel’s neighbours were Clara and…Jesse.

You did what?

Jesse’s brother?

I obviously was unaware that Blondie from the bar was Jesse’s brother when I rutted against his thigh like a bitch in heat outside my flat building

But yes, Jesse’s brother

This is why I avoid men

Anyway, was your thing as stupid as mine?

I don’t think your thing was that stupid, so it’s more stupid

And will you ever state what your stupid thing is or am I to guess via brainwaves that you send to me across the Heath?

I had sex with Eli

There was a delay in her response that made me nervous.

I can’t say I didn’t see that coming. Pun very much intended

I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

Was it at least decent? Or was it bad and is that why you are panicking about it?

I am not panicking about it

I absolutely was.

Then what is the problem?

In theory, there wasn’t one. We both agreed to getting it out of our systems, and that was what we’d done. But the reality already felt much different to what I imagined when I agreed to it while looking at rugs.

I assumed once it was over, the itch would be suitably scratched.

But it didn’t feel like it had been.

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