Page 62 of If I Gave You My Heart
"Baby, I know this is a lot, just please…"
Snot was running down my nose and tears were down my cheeks as I pleaded with him in the pouring rain. He pushed the button on the push to start to finish starting the car, and I watched him shift gears.
"Let go of my door, Nyoka."
"Please stay. Let's talk about this."
"Stop asking me to stay. I need time to think. I'm not with this crazy shit!"
We had this big ass house, so I didn't understand why he couldn't pick a damn room and do all the thinking that he wanted.
"Just come inside. Please."
I guess he was tired of sitting there listening to me cry and attempt to plead my case because he just looked in my direction, poked his bottom lip out, and then shook his head up and down before stepping on the gas. I ran alongside the car for as long as I could before he floored that bitch. Two of my nails broke when the speed from the take-off forced the car door out of my grasp, and I lost my footing and was thrown to the street. I lay there for a minute, just letting the rain pour down on me as I cried.
The thunder outside silenced the screams of my heartbreak. I was pretty sure that a couple of my neighbors were probably watching the whole shit play out on their Ring cameras, and knowing that, I finally pulled myself from the street to walk back down the block and into the house. My phone was on the floor at the bottom of the steps. I must not have realized it had fallen out of my pocket while running behind him down the stairs. My ring and middle finger were bleeding from the broken nails. I snatched the phone up and called Talia. She answered on the first ring.
"I'm on the way…" was all she said before I cried into the phone.
I already knew that Adonis must have called Dom. I sat on the floor of the foyer and waited for her arrival.
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"Did y'all fight?" Talia asked as soon as she walked through the door. I saw she was looking at the key rack on the floor and then at my busted hand.
"No, I was just trying to get him to stay."
"Aw hunny. It's a lot for him to process."
I knew it was, but I needed Adonis to understand that I really did love him.
"He said he needed time to think," I voiced reassuringly.
"There we go. Now let's get you cleaned up." Talia held her hand out for me, and I took it.
I already knew that my hair was puffy and all over the place from a mix of the workout I got from running alongside the car and from the rain. Talia sat on the toilet seat while I showered and cried, and when I was finished, she was waiting outside the glass doors with my robe held open.
I was blessed to have her as family. I crawled into our big bed, and she laid right beside me. We lay there in silence. I wasn't even crying anymore. I'm sure that I was all cried out. I just replayed everything over in my head.
"Ny…" Talia lightly whispered.
"Hmm?"
"I'm pregnant."
I turned around to face Talia. She was already lying on her side, facing me. She had this scared facial expression.
"Does Dom know?"
"Yes, I took the test after you dropped me after the spa."
"Should I say congratulations?"
Talia, like me, wasn't the motherly type, but she had her person, so I'm sure she and Dom can figure it out. She gave me a small smile.
"Congratulations," I expressed as I smiled back at her.
I had wondered what having kids with Adonis would be like. I was practicing what I would say to him when he walked back through those doors. I had everything mapped out in my head. I would give him the raw and uncut version of Nyoka "Snake Eyes" Fitzgerald's life. I was prepared to share all the pieces of myself. I just needed Adonis to come back home.
