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As Rodney has reminded me—life gave me a second chance and I won’t take it for granted. I need to live life to the fullest whenever possible. That’s why I’m so adamant to explain myself to Indy, even if it changes nothing between us moving forward. She deserves to know where I was coming from in that last letter to her. I was wrong to do what I did, but she should know that I regret my choices.
Mentally, I was sick and I was angry at the circumstances life chose to hand me. When I wrote her, I really believed I deserved to have been gone and Georgie should have been the one living. But in many ways, I thought I was doing her a favor.
I’m not saying life hasn’t dealt her a shitty hand as well, but I simply did a poor job handling everything on my end. I’ll own up to it.
I just hope this text means she’ll be open to a conversation and not just shut me down.
I grab my phone and open up our text thread.
Yeah. I get off work tomorrow morning. Would that work?
I see the little dots pop up immediately after I press send.
Indy
Can you swing by after your shift? I’m working from home in the morning.
I’ll text you when I’m headed over.
Indy
See you then.
Sounds like I’ll finally get my chance to talk to her. I know she’ll most likely be upset for the lies I put her through, but she deserves to know the truth. I’ve carried it for far too long and from the way she’s been acting, the bitterness she carries seems to weigh heavy on her shoulders.
CHAPTER 25
Tyler
6 YEARS AGO
January 8, 2019
Hey, you-make-my-day-brighter Indy!
How were your holidays? Did you do anything fun? We decorated the best we could and had some traditional food from back home. We made the best of it.
How are things going at work? From what you last mentioned, you were swamped. I hope you’re adjusting to the new role. I know it’s a lot more work, but I hope you’re really enjoying it still.
Your goal to still become an author? Does this mean the positions you’re holding would lead to that? I don’t know much about the publication world so you’ll have to enlighten me.
The days are long here. I look forward to your letters and hearing about your day brings a smile to my face. Your last letter brought the biggest smile to my face,actually. Knowing you wouldn’t mind a visit from me is music to my ears.
Of course I still think about our days at the Dam. How could I not? I was spending my days with the prettiest girl in school! Plus, you were such a ray of light for me in my dark life. I know you think I “saved” you, but in truth we saved each other on that Nevada landscape.
This letter won’t be as long as some others, I’m sorry to say. But I wanted to get a letter sent out to let you know I’m thinking of you. Actually, I’m thinking about you more often than not these days.
I hope we can see one another soon. I have started the latest book you sent me and that book is spicy as hell. I can’t stop highlighting it and the guys are giving me shit for it.
I really do love the steamy books,
Ty
PS: I swear, woman, these books you’re sending me are getting dirtier each and every time. What are you trying to do to me?
CHAPTER 26
Indiana
