Page 61 of Finally Forever
“I usually do when I’m with you.”
His brows arch. “Laugh?”
“Have the time of my life.”
The grin that splits his lips and lights up his face speaks of pride and appreciation. Before me, no one complimented Sebastian or made him feel special in a healthy way.
He catches me gazing at him the way I do when he takes my breath away with that smile. His features soften and he studies me, reacting to him. I let him read me. I have nothing to hide only love for him.
Snowflakes fall around us, landing on his black outfit and in his dark grown-out hair. The cut is more stylish now, like something you’d see on a sexy movie vampire rather than the one length cut he had when he returned from the grave to me in Scotland. Best surprise ever!
And here we are, still suffering from the injuries that killed him before he was resuscitated.
I shake my head to clear the thought.
“What’s wrong?” Sebastian asks.
The smile I paste on my face won’t fool him. “Nothing. I’m fine.” I gesture to the other snowmobile. “Where do you think Nathan went?”
He won’t miss my deflection, either. He rubs his chin, as if debating how to proceed. “Nathan raced back to greet his fiancée. We hadn’t planned to stay out as long as we did.”
“She’s here? Omigod. We should have been here to greet her. I feel like an ass.” I stomp toward the garage entrance and throw over my shoulder, “You shouldn’t have taken me out, Sebastian.”
He laughs. “Nice to meet the real you.”
I stop and glare at him. “What does that mean?”
“It means, you’ve been tiptoeing around me, afraid to be the real you.”
I march up to him and lift my chin, my face only as high as his shoulders. “I tiptoe because I’m afraid of losing you forever. And I’m one hundred percent my real self when we’re together sexually.” The last word is a whisper.
“It’s cute that you feel the need to whisper the wordsexuallywhen you have no problem screaming my name every time you orgasm loud enough for the bears in the woods to hear.”
“Stop.” I smack his arm and glance around to see if any doors are open or people are listening. The coast looks clear. I lean toward him and murmur, “Am I really that loud?”
“Oh, yeah.” He nods, grinning from ear to ear. “And if you stop, I’ll tie you to the bed and bring you to the brink of an orgasm with no release until you scream for me to take you.”
Hot and bothered in all the right places, I gaze up at him, my jaw hanging. “Who are you?”
“The me you never met.” He bends to my ear. “But who you clearly like.”
He walks off, leaving me speechless and needy. At least, I’m no longer cold.
24
Sebastian
The look on Ainsley’s face and true desire radiating from her eyes made it hard for me not to throw her over my shoulder and have my way with her in her room. If I’m going to keep having sex with her, I should join her in the primary suite.
Last night was incredible. She’s more than I gave her credit for in every way. The appeal I couldn’t see before rings louder the more I’m around her. She’s addictive. So different from what I know. She’s gentle, open, trusting, vulnerable, loyal, and that little body tempts my darker side. I have to be careful with her. That side isn’t one she knew. I’d been working hard to push past it and become a better person than who I was raised to be. Not wanting to be my father is an immense motivator.
I did well, obviously, to have attracted someone like Ainsley, or else I hid that side from her. Maybe it died in the car accident and my second chance at life gave me the strength to be who I want to be. I don’t hate myself like I used to or my life. I’m not tied to Marina anymore, either.
The kitchen is empty when I pass through and grab a bottle of water from the refrigerator. The family room is empty too, not a couch pillow disturbed. Nathan must have taken Kensington upstairs to their bedroom.
I plop onto the couch and turn on the flat screen. The weather plays, showing the cold front that came in last night and dumped a blanket of fresh snow. In two days, it will melt away, leaving behind patches and sludge.
At least we got to ride the snowmobiles when we had the chance. Ainsley enters the kitchen and surveys the two rooms. She eyes my bottled water and licks her lips. I love those lips.
