Page 44 of Waiting Forever
“You are more of a woman than I gave you credit for. Proven by your seduction attempts.” His gaze is riveted to my ass. “You know I won’t join you, but you also know if I do, I won’t be able to focus on my anger.”
“Both scenarios mean you wait. Although I think showering with me is a better alternative to showering alone,”I taunt, loving the heat in his gaze.
With my back to him, I slide off my bikini bottoms and disappear into the bathroom, leaving the door open in case he changes his mind. I turn on the shower and wait for the water to warm.
Seconds tick by. Will he give in to his desire and join me? Will I finally know what it’s like to have him? Once I do, if I do, will I be able to keep him?
The water heats and steam moistens the air. I step under the soft spray and listen for Nathan. Nothing sounds in the other room. Did he leave?
I rinse my hair and shiver as the last of the chills leave my body. Still no Nathan.
After I shampoo and condition my hair, I give up on him joining me. Sadness mixes with my sexual frustration. He’s so close and yet still so far away.I could bring myself to satisfaction, but I want him to do it.
Damn you, Nathan.Why does he have to be so stubborn? Why does he have to reject me at every turn?
Because he has a girlfriend for starters.
My stomach sours at how I acted, taunting and teasing him. Although I don’t regret it, it was out of character, even for me. But this is Nathan. He makes me crazy. He declared how much he wants me for the first time ever, and I reacted. Was it right? No, but nothing about us is right—according to him!
I see it differently. Not that it matters. His willpower is a strong as Thor and his mighty hammer. I mean, I stripped for himtwice,and he still walked away.
Don’t think about it. I dry myself off and change into a tank top and underwear.Tomorrow is a new day, filled with new opportunities.This is how I’ve gotten by since the incident. This is how I will continue to get by. Although, I’m certain my wired body and brain won’t make it easy to sleep tonight.
18
Nathan
THE CAR RIDE to Ryland is quiet. Neither Kensi nor I have spoken. Clouds layer the sky, shielding the sun and making it seem earlier than it is. I park in a spot on campus near Kensi’s morning class, aware of the puffiness around her eyes. She’s yawned at least three times.
Did she have a hard time sleeping because of me?
It took all my willpower to leave her room last night after she bared herself to me. Her pert little ass was like a dream. All that tan, smooth skin on display had me so hard my balls ached. She’s nothing like I imagined and everything I desire in a woman. Had I known she’d be so tempting, so taunting and bold, I might have argued to my dad she couldn’t stay here. Not that it would have done much good. He and her family had already enrolled her at Ryland. She was coming, whether I wanted her to or not.
“You sure you don’t want to do a coffee run before class?” I ask, not wanting to leave her and head to work just yet. “I have time.”
She stares out the windshield, her eyelids closing with slow blinks like she might fall asleep. “I’ll be fine. Azure’s bringing me my tea from Starbucks.”
I grip the steering wheel tighter. “Who?”
“My friend Azure.” She glances at me just as the morning sun breaks through a cloud, the ray brightening her face and turquoise eyes. She squints and leans into a shady spot, which puts her closer to me. “I met him at Starbucks the day I left the house because you were…” Her nose scrunches with obvious disgust. She shakes her head. “Never mind. I should go.” She clutches the door handle.
Man, I hate seeing her so sad. I also hate this guy she met who’s bringing her favorite tea. “Wait.” I stop her before she climbs out of the SUV. “What classes do you have today?”
Her brows crinkle. “Why do you care?”
“I thought maybe we could have lunch.”
“You work downtown. That’s not exactly around the corner.”
For someone who just moved here, she sure does know the area well. I still haven’t learned what happened to her and am certain all this knowledge of her surroundings is a result of it. “I want to clear up a few things about last night.”
“There’s nothing to clear up. I was out of line. You have a girlfriend. I shouldn’t have done what I did. I’m notthat girlwho tempts a guy in a relationship. It was wrong of me. I’m sorry.”
I was not expecting that. “It’s fine. Besides, my relationship is a disaster waiting to end. You were right about what you said last night. Harper is a distraction. For a while, she was a fun distraction. Now—”
She holds up her palm and turns her head, her long hair shielding her profile from me. “I don’t need the details.”
I take her hand in mine. “You didn’t do anything wrong last night. We have history. It changes things, and our relationship has definitely changed.” I let out a dry laugh. “Hell, it changed back when you turned sixteen, and I saw you in your bikini at the beach, looking like a fantasy.”
