Page 52 of The Fangirl Project
The honest truth? No judgment?
@runicrascal
Rascal’s honor
@mythicwitch
I don’t know that I can be the kind of person who makes being a fan of something their whole personality. Or at least, shows so much of it, so openly. It just felt really weird, and I feel icky saying that, and I’m not trying to dunk on the people who do cosplay
@mythicwitch
But it’s still…niche? Weird? Generally very very very far outside of my comfort zone
@mythicwitch
I know that sounds really silly because, if anything, I should be cool with cosplaying so that I fit in better. I basically do that anyway with my friends, matching my style to theirs and trying to just do what everyone else is doing so that I “belong” or whatever, but…
@mythicwitch
Sorry, I think I accidentally turned this into a therapy session. The short answer is, I was too much of a coward to be seen in public like that
@runicrascal
Putting on my best, most amateur therapist hat, sounds like you spend a hell of a lot of time worrying about what other people think
@mythicwitch
Don’t you?
@runicrascal
Why should I?
@mythicwitch
Doesn’t it…I don’t know, narrow the pool for finding friends? Generally make you less respected by others? Make you kind of an outcast? Not YOU personally, obviously, but…in general
@runicrascal
Who cares? If someone’s going to write me off or disown me as a friend for liking something different than them, or wanting to spend my free time doing something they don’t care about, they’re not worth my friendship anyway. I don’t want to surround myself with people who are going to make my life smaller just so I can say I fit in
@runicrascal
I like the things I like, I have friends who matter to me, and, frankly, idgaf what anyone else thinks of that
Even if sometimes that does make me…defensive
@mythicwitch
Defensive?
@runicrascal
Sometimes I can be on my guard when I think someone’s trying to belittle the stuff I’m into. Like with OWAR. I know people think it’s just “some stupid fantasy series” but it’s not, it’s so much more than that. It’s finding characters you relate to and people you connect with and new perspectives. New inspiration for artwork…
@mythicwitch
Yeah, I’m starting to understand that now
