Page 125 of A Love That Broke Us
My entire body goes into some kind of shock. My hands shake so hard I nearly drop the box as I carry it to the kitchen. I toss it onto the counter, letting my head fall into my hands as I lean on my elbows, trying to breathe. Trying to stabilize.
The room spins, and I feel like I might pass out or throw up. Tears sting, threatening to fall.
Shit. No.I refuse to cry today.
I just did my makeup. I can’t do this today. I won’t let anything ruin this day for me.
I drift down the hallway, running trembling fingers through my hair. Back in the bathroom, I pick up my phone and text Jensen, already knowing I won’t hear from him the rest of the day.
I know.
I found your stash.
God.I’m so mad I could take a sledgehammer to everything that matters to him.
My heart hammers between my ears, and I remind myself to take a deep breath so I don’t have a panic attack or a nervous breakdown.
I text Matt.
What are you doing the rest of the day. You busy?
Matt responds almost immediately. You know, because he’snoton drugs.
Matt
Just meeting a buddy for drinks later. What’s up?
I hate to ask this, but… can you cancel? Will you go with me to Zach and Joey’s wedding?
Matt
Where’s Jensen?
Don’t ask.
My phone vibrates. Matt’s calling, and I swipe to answer.
“Hey,” I say, my tone flat.
“Hey. What’s going on?”
“I don’t know. Jensen was supposed to be home today, but then he texted me some bullshit excuse about flights being delayed and overbooked.”
“He’s in Boston, right? Work trip?”
“That’s what he says, but…” My voice cracks. “I found drugs, Matt. Hidden in his office. There’s a whole kit with Oxy and cocaine.”
“Shit. What time do you want to leave for the wedding? I’ll pick you up. No problem.”
“Um…” My lips quiver, and my shaking hand knocks the phone against my ear. “Two o’clock, if that’s okay? It’s in Long Island.”
“Sure thing. I’ll be ready. I’ll drive.”
“Thanks, Matt.” I tilt my head back, eyes squeezing shut.
“No problem. It’s gonna be okay, Al. We’ll have fun, alright?”
I nod, like he can see me. My silence says it all.
