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Snuggled into his side with his arm around me, we watched the simple made-for-TV spy movie. It had one too many chase sequences and nonstop gratuitous violence.
When the next ad started, he leaned in and kissed me. The craving for more had me rotating and then straddling his lap to get closer and make the kiss deeper. I remained cautious of his shoulder. Our tongues tangled until we both had to pull away gasping to breathe.
"I didn't mean to, but I couldn't resist any longer," he said.
"I want this…you." I pulled my shirt over my head.
Shock and hunger played on his face. The way his eyes devoured everything about me banked the fire in my body.
I reached up and undid the knot at my neck, letting my hair cascade in waves to my mid-back. Power surged through me at my ability to render such a compelling, confident man speechless. "Touch me."
He swallowed hard. "Are you sure?"
"I trust you." I leaned forward to kiss him. "I'm not afraid of you."
He craned away. "You might trust me, but not enough to talk about those demons."
"I can't. You're going to have to try to understand that. Please, I don't want to stop. We may only get one more night. Will you let us have that?"
"You're not playing fair to try to negotiate half dressed withthosein my face." Gently he cupped a breast and touched the skin but avoided the nipple. "With you like this…" He examined me. "You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen." There was desire in his stare but also emotion. "Like I said last time, this isn't just about sex for me."
"If it was just about sex I wouldn't be here. You get that, right?" I kissed each of his cheeks and then his mouth. "You're not a booty call. I haven't been able to let go of what we had."
"Have. What wehave, Joley."
I was falling into him again. I wanted to touch everything at once and be touched. I wanted to be consumed in him again.
Oh, my God. He'd been shot and I hadn't known. Fear clawed at my throat. "It scares me that you could've died. That you'll probably get shot again. That you might get killed one day."
"There's no use borrowing trouble worrying."
I ran my hand through his bangs to pull them off his eyebrows to see his bruised eye. Even the white part of his eye had a red blood spot. "I worry. Next time something awful like this happens, know I'm worrying." I kissed the band-aid over his eyebrow. "I hate that I'm going to hurt you again. You don't deserve that. You have enough shit to deal with. You don't need a screwed-up college flunk out who can't be your commitment girl."
"You came back to me," he whispered. "That's what matters."
"My demons won't let me have this."
"Let me help you fight your demons." He flicked open my bra and took a nipple into his mouth. "It's what I'm good at."
I gasped. "I can't. They'll incinerate you."
ChapterTwenty-Four
SETH
I should be resentful that she ran from me last time. That she wouldn't let me into her life. I had a good idea who her demon might be.
But this moment meant everything. She came back to me because she neededme. I knew in my soul there was going to be a Seth and Joley. I was ready to go all in now that she’d reappeared. Yet, she warned me she still wasn't ready.
That hurt, but I'd give her what she needed right now. Eventually, she'd let me give her everything. I had to be patient. She was worth it.
Her love language was sex. I got that, but I needed to make sure she was still as emotionally invested as me.
There was my brain saying slow down and get her mind involved. Then there was my dick sayinghoooly shitevery time I looked at her chest. I recalled every detail of her curves, but that didn't mean I wasn't still in awe of her in reality. It wasn't only about her beauty. The well of strength inside her activated by her compassion is what got to me.
She kissed down my neck. "I haven't been with anyone since us. That's not like me, but I haven't wanted anyone else. Haven't even been on a date."
My chest expanded. "Did you make yourself come while thinking of me?"
