Page 46 of Ruin
She grins. “And deny people of all this?” She runs a hand down her curves, and my eyes follow the movement. “I mean, I guess I kind of am in the motivational space… But I don’t do a whole lot of talking.” She winks.
I choke on a laugh, and her grin grows wider. “And speaking of… Sebastian mentioned he’s agreed to help you.” Her smile turns to a smirk when I blush. “Well now you have to tell me all the details.”
I gape at her for a moment. “I can’t tell you that!”
She shrugs. “Why not? I mean, I can you give you the details about how he just gave me a good punishing for being a brat if you want?”
I halt in the process of shaking my head, feeling my eyes go wide. “What do you mean, he punished you?”
She hesitates, studying my face. “Shit, poor choice of words. Sorry, I wasn’t thinking.” I guess my face must show how unnerved I am at the idea of of Sebastian yelling at her… or worse.
“What did you mean?”
She seems to be trying to work out the right thing to say, and takes longer to answer than usual. “So… I like being spanked.”
I raise an eyebrow. “You like being hit?” I ask, not even bothering to hide the incredulity in my tone.
She holds up a finger. “No. I like being spanked during sex. There’s a difference.”
“How so?”
“Well, for one thing, Sebastian doesn’t get off on smacking me around. He only spanks me, and it’s only because I told him that I like it. He’s never spanked Imogen, not properly… Which is a good thing, cause she’d probably kick him in the balls. I find it arousing. Maybe I’m weird, but we’ve all got our kinks, and being spanked is mine. Being told I’m a brat and a naughty girl… I don’t know, it just does something for me.” A little shiver runs through her, which I find fascinating. After years spent as Joseph’s human punching bag, I couldn’t imagine ever welcoming someone hitting me, even if it was just for show. “I also just get off on winding him right up. It’s fun to get under that mask of control, and I’m really good at it.” She grins.
“So you asked him to punish you?”
She shrugs. “I went in to his office to ask him if he agreed to help you and could see how pissed he still was about me ‘interfering’ last night,” she says, using air quotes. “So I kept on pushing to get him fired up, and it worked. Spanking, face fucking and being bent over his desk. We both got what we needed.”
I mull over her words for a moment, trying to work out if I’m jealous or not. But just like the night I’d seen them all together, I’m turned on at the idea of seeing them together.
“What’s going through that pretty blonde head right now?” she asks warily. “Oh god, have I upset you?”
I shake my head. “No.”
“You’re not jealous that he fucked me the morning after he agreed to help you?” She runs her gaze over my face.
“No, it’s not that.”
“Have I freaked you out about the spanking?”
I give a little laugh as I place a hand on her arm. “Calm down. I’m just trying to process my feelings about it all. Sebastian and I discussed our arrangement and he explicitly told me he doesn’t do monogamy. Which I am fine with. More than fine with, actually. After years of being abused if I so much as looked at another man, the idea of sleeping with someone who doesn’t think of me as his possession is refreshing.”
“So what’s going on in your head, then?” she asks, clearly confused.
“I think… I think I was turned on by the picture you just put into my head,” I say quickly, blurting out the words before I lose my nerve.
Her eyes widen, and a grin slowly spreads across her face. “Oooohhhh… So you like to watch?”
There’s no judgement in her tone, which emboldens me to nod. “Yeah… I think I do. I mean… look, I’m not gonna lie. I definitely have confusing feelings towards Sebastian.”
She nods. “Understandable. Continue,” she adds, waving her hand.
“But… it wasn’t just him that had me feeling all… weird… that night.”
She grins. “Translation. You were horny as fuck, but it wasn’t just from seeing Sebastian naked. You liked watching all of us.”
I sigh. “You’re really enjoying this far too much.”
She cackles. “You have no idea how much I’m enjoying this. So, spanking aside, which I completely get is not for you, you’d be up for watching Sebastian punish me sometime?”
