Page 55 of Ruin
I refuse to back down. If he wants to test my resolve, then he better get a fucking move on.
Because now I’m horny as fuck.
25
I CONTROL WHEN AND HOW YOU COME
SEBASTIAN
I truly hadn’t thoughtthat Lily would follow through. It was exactly why I’d sprung this whole scenario on her. Because despite her declarations last night, she has no idea how often people think they want to take part in group sex until the chance presents itself, and they run screaming in the opposite direction. I’ve seen it happen countless times, and fully expected that same thing to happen tonight.
When she’d let me finger her during the concert, it had shocked the hell out of me. But then, I’d reasoned, it was just the two of us. Sure, Declan had watched the whole thing, but as far as she knew, he was never go to see her again.
I’d contacted Declan earlier this morning and told him we’d be coming. I’d mentioned that Lily was a fan and would like to meet him, and alluded to the chance of a threesome. He’s aware she doesn’t work for me, so I think he’d been surprised by our little performance. But I also know he’s a decent guy, and wouldn’t be disappointed when Lily came to her senses and shot him down.
But then she didn’t shoot him down.
And now we’re in the elevator, heading up to the Presidential Suite.
I’m very rarely surprised. And right now, I’m both surprised and confused.
There is absolutely no way she’s going to do this. Not because I don’t think she should. I’m certainly in no position to tell anyone how they should live their lives, and am more than open to people exploring their sexual fantasies.
No, I’m confused because now I’m wondering if I’ve completely misunderstood this woman all along.
I stand next to Lily, and can feel the tension running through her as she crosses her arms. I have to fight the urge to place a comforting hand on her lower back. I’ve already crossed so many of my own boundaries with the hand holding that if I touch her right now, the lines are going to become so blurred that I have no way of turning back.
The elevator arrives on the top floor, and we cross the hall to the door. This hotel has two floors of luxury suites beneath this one, but the Presidential suite takes up the whole top floor.
“Where’s Emery and the rest of your usual entourage?” I ask, remembering he usually has his manager and several others staying with him.
I’d been so preoccupied by Lily I hadn’t stopped to think about if we might be dealing with the presence of others.
“Emery didn’t come along this time. Figured we’re only here for two nights and things have been a little strained lately,” Declan replies, grimacing.
I nod, not needing him to explain any further. His manager is also his ex-girlfriend and their relationship has always been up and down. We’ve met a few times, and the former model is stunning. And knows how to get under Declan’s skin.
“And the rest of the band?” Lily asks.
Declan grins, swiping his card over the security panel. “Don’t worry, they aren’t staying with me either.”
Once Declan lets us into the four-bedroom suite, he tosses his jacket over the back of one of the high-backed dining chairs before turning back to us. “Drink?”
I shake my head. “No, I drove this evening.” There is also no way I am drinking any more tonight with Lily potentially taking such a huge step.
“Cool. Lily?”
She shakes her head, and he shrugs before heading for the fully stocked bar.
While he’s distracted, I tug her towards me and lift her chin, giving in to the urge to touch her and bringing her gaze to mine.
“Are you sure you want to do this?”
She glares at me. “Yes.”
Noticing her jaw clench, I sigh while I stroke my thumb over her cheek gently.
“I’m not asking because I think you shouldn’t do this. Or because I’m testing you. I want to make sure you’re truly okay with what’s about to happen. That this is really what you want.”
