Page 66 of Love Heals
God, he really wanted this, didn't he?
I traced a finger down his taint, toward his rim, skating over it. "Have you ever had anyone lick you here?"
"No."
A smile formed on my lips. "You're going to enjoy this," I promised, and then I went to work. I had no idea how many rim jobs I might have given over the course of my lifetime—both alive and undead—but I did my absolute best to ensure that the one I gave Jared would be my crowning achievement. I licked his rim as if it was the most delicious thing I had ever tasted. As if it was the outer layer of a tootsie pop and I really wanted to get to the center. I stuck my tongue inside of him too, as far as it would go. Jared's hole was tight and it didn't let me in easily, but eventually, he relaxed enough for me to gain access.
He didn't make a lot of noise, but the sounds he did make seemed to be rising up straight from his core. Moans of pleasure that he just couldn't keep to himself, no matter how hard he tried. It didn't surprise me that he was as quiet in bed as he was otherwise. It didn't bother me either. It only made every sound I did get out of him that much more delightful, reassuring me that I was doing a good job.
After a while, I fiddled with the bottle of lube and got some of it onto my fingers. I paused to look at Jared. His skin was flushed, his breathing hard. The musk of his arousal hung heavy in the air. "I didn't know that could feel like that," he rasped.
I grinned, feeling something in my heartlift."Ready for more?"
He looked straight at me. "Don't hold back."
"Wasn't gonna." I was still going to go easy, though, at least at first. Jared didn'treallyknow what he was getting himself into, and I wanted to give him ample chance to back out if this turned out differently from what he'd expected. Slowly, I circled one lubed finger around his hole before dipping in. The ring of his muscles gave easily now, relaxed from the rim job. I tried adding another finger. He took it without complaint.
And then he squeezed around my fingers and the sensation sent a shiver down my spine so intense I stopped moving for a second. My cock strained against the fabric of my boxers, wanting to be inside of him. What would it feel like? His tight heat clutching my cock...
Nicolai hadneverlet me top him, and I couldn't remember my life before him clearly enough to predict what it might be like to sink into someone like that.
I wanted to, though, and the fact that Nicolai had never let me do this to him helped me see this through. This was so different from everything I'd done with my sire that thoughts of him didn't interrupt me as I stretched Jared's hole, feeling it widen around my fingers.
I poured more lube onto my hand and added another digit. Jared had his eyes closed, his head tilted back, gulping in air. I wouldn't have been able to tell if he was enjoying this—if not for my sixth sense. His desire brushed up against me, making my skin tingle, right down to my cock.
Exhaling, I forced myself to remain patient. This was my one chance at getting with Jared in spite of how broken I was. If I messed this up... No, I wouldn't. "I'm going to go slow," I told Jared, withdrawing my fingers when I thought he was stretched enough for me.
He blinked his eyes open. They were clouded with lust. "This position okay?"
"It'll work." I shoved down my pants and boxers and took myself in hand, my cock achingly hard. I wasn't going to come, though. Not yet. I had a vampire's stamina, and I wasn't going to come until I had made sure Jared was spent. I needed to make this good for him. I needed to please him. "Spread your legs a little more."
Jared did, and I positioned myself, guiding the tip of my cock to his hole. He tensed, but only for a second, then I slid in. I kept my promise to take it slow, knowing that it was Jared's first time doing this, but damn... It wasn't easy. He felt so good around my tip, I wanted to plunge into him, bury myself in him as deeply as I could, as quickly as I could.
But I took my time, waiting for Jared to adjust. All along, I kept my eyes on him. He held my gaze. I sunk into his. There was so much trust there, it was almost too much. I didn't deserve it because I was a traitor, because I...
Because you're a cheater.
That voice again. I shoved it aside as forcefully as I could. It had no place here, not right now. Not while Jared was looking at me like this. Not while I was inching ever deeper inside of him.
I exhaled when I bottomed out, closing my eyes. "Fuck," I cursed out loud, because damn...
It had been way too damn long since I'd gotten to fuck anyone. I'd forgotten how good it could be.
"Feel good?" Jared's voice called me out of my thoughts.
"Feels amazing." I leaned down to brush our lips together. "Thank you."
"Don't thank me." Was that my imagination or did Jared sound a little hoarse? His mouth caught mine in another kiss, this one a little rougher. It shot straight down to my cock, which wanted me tomove.And maybe Jared wanted me to move too, because his inner walls squeezed around me and my brain nearly exploded.
Holy shit, was sexsupposedto feel this good?
Forbidden fruits are always the sweetest,the treacherous voice in the back of my mind chimed in. I tried to push it aside again, because I wasn't doing anything forbidden. I was following the rules.
You're following the letters of the rule but not the spirit of it, and you know it too.
I gritted my teeth together. Why couldn't I get rid of that damn voice? Everything would be so much easier if I could just...
"Silas."
