Page 69 of A Dragon's Miracle (Fires of Fate)
Finn
The night before the battle, I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t want to admit that I was nervous about what was to come, but I couldn’t help lying in the dark, staring at the ceiling and feeling utterly restless. And apparently, I was radiating so much tension that I was keeping Ryan up too—which I really shouldn’t do because he always looked tired now.
In the dark, Ryan turned to me and ran his fingers down my arms. “Can’t sleep?” he asked.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know what it is.”
“You're going to fight Jin tomorrow. Honestly, I'm not surprised you can't sleep.”
“Is it keeping you up too?”
Ryan was quiet for a moment, and then he said, “No. I'm not nervous. I know you're going to win.” His voice had something quite firm to it.
“How can you be so sure?” I didn't want to show weakness, or a lack of conviction, but I had to ask.
“Because you promised,” Ryan said, simply. “And so far, you've never let me down.”
“I feel like I have,” I admitted. “I should have taken care of Jin a lot sooner. I always suspected that he was mistreating you.”
Ryan touched my cheek in a gentle caress. “There was nothing you could have done. How often do I have to tell you that?”
I sighed. “I don't know. I don't think I'll get over it until that bastard is out of our lives.”
“It's going to happen,” Ryan said. “At some point, we'll look back on this and realize that Jin was just a tiny part of our lives. He never mattered to me. Not the way you do. Even if I live to be a hundred, I never want to be with anyone but you again. It should have been you from the start.” Ryan moved to kiss me, and the way his lips moved on mine, the way that made mefeel, proved to me that his words were true. This wasright.Ryan belonged to me, and it was only right that I should fight for him. He was worth it.Thiswas worth it.
“Let me help you relax,” Ryan whispered, his breath warm on my skin before he moved lower and tugged on the waistband of my boxers.
“What are you--oh.”
I stopped short when Ryan wrapped his hand around my cock. Sothatwas what he'd meant with helping me relax. I closed my eyes and exhaled. I was so on board with relaxing.
Ryan chuckled, and then he touched his lips to my rapidly hardening cock. I sighed, feeling the nervous tension in my body being replaced with a wholly different sort of tension. With Ryan being sick as well as pregnant, we hadn’t reallydoneanything in a while. I didn’t hold that against him, of course, but man. It wasniceto get intimate. I used to dream about Ryan’s lips, and nothing could beat actually having them on me. I didn’t eventryto hold back the moan that escaped me when he took me into his mouth, tongue rubbing the underside of my cock. He was good at this. Always took his time, like nothing was more important to him that making me go fucking crazy. But then, he’d been doingthatfrom the moment he’d first told me he wasn’t available.
Sometimes I still couldn’t believe he was mine now. Even when he was sucking my cock and fondling my balls with one of his hands. All of this was too good to be true.
“Gods, Ryan.” I had the hardest time not just bucking my hips and fucking his pretty mouth. I’d never been an aggressive lover—still wasn’t—but something about Ryan always made it difficult for me to control myself. It was as if his mere presence spoke to my inner dragon, drawing it out into the open until I could feel it right beneath my skin. He was the only one who could make me feel that way, and it was overwhelming and intoxicating at the same time. And more than that. It wasn’tjustcarnal lust that I felt when I was with Ryan. No, that was what I’d experienced with other partners, what I’dthoughtsex was all about. This went far deeper than that. I wanted to fuck Ryan. But I also wanted to wrap my arms around him and never let go, wanted to be as close as possible, wanted to wake up every morning for the rest of my life with him by my side.
And the thought that that might not be possible was enough to tear me apart inside.
So I ceased thinking and let the feeling of Ryan’s hot mouth wash over me.
It didn’t take him long to finish me off at all. Once I let myself relax, it was only a matter of minutes. Ryan knew what I liked, knew exactly how to tease me with his tongue to make me lose control. And I let myself go, not ashamed at all. This was what he’d wanted, wasn’t it? To help me relax? He’d certainly managedthat.Every muscle in my body tensed as I approached orgasm, but once I hit it and Ryan swallowed my seed, I was jelly.
I panted, trying to catch my breath as my climax tore through me and my hips shook and Ryan stole the last air from my lungs by coming up to kiss me. Gods, I loved this man. More than I’d ever loved anything or anyone. More than I probably ever would.
Well, except maybe for the child he was carrying. My heart swelled as I closed my arms around him and felt the baby bump. Everything I needed was right here. I only needed tokeepit somehow. By beating Jin tomorrow. By being the dragon my love and my child needed me to be. I could do that.
I placed my mouth next to Ryan’s ear. “Thank you.”
“You’re very welcome.” I couldn’t see it in the dark, but I heard the smile in his voice. “You have no idea how much I enjoyed doing that.”
I chuckled, because I was happy. “Did you?”
“Yup.” He kissed my neck. “Sleep now. Tomorrow’s the day we’ll start our happily ever after. I know it.”
“If you say so it must be right.” I exhaled and closed my eyes, feeling sleep tug at the edge of my consciousness already. It was easy to doze off now. All I had to do was to believe Ryan.
