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“It’snot sexual, that’s not what’s…driving me toward him. I can’t imagine fuckinghim and I’m damn sure not taking one in the ass.” Everly laughs, and I give hera small smile. “But yes, I’m happy when he gets home. I want to spend time withhim.”
“Doeshe want the same thing?”
“He’sbeen flirting with me since we met,” I reply, getting up to grab a couple ofplates for our quickly cooling food. “He thinks I want him. Said he’ll waituntil I come to terms with how I feel. I don’t want to give him false hope whenI don’t know how I feel. I don’t want to hurt him.”
Evsmiles up at me. “You’ve done a pretty good job telling me how you feel, Ian. Ihave to agree with Alex. You know. You’re struggling to accept that you’refalling for the same sex.”
“Ididn’t say I was falling for him.”
“Youdidn’t have to. Your eyes light up when you talk about him and you smilewithout realizing it. I’ve never seen you that way over a woman.” Ev comes upbehind me and wraps her arms around my stomach, her chin resting on myshoulder. “You want my advice, Ian? Go with your heart. Don’t worry aboutlabeling yourself gay, bi, straight, or whatever. Let yourself love who youlove. Let it happen.”
Shesteps back when I turn around and hug her. “I love you, pup.”
“Ilove you, too, but I’m willing to share you with another Reed brother. Oh! Ifyou marry him, we’ll be in-laws!” Her excitement makes me laugh.
“Wayahead of yourself there, woman. Keep this between us for now, okay?”
“Ofcourse.” An impish grin tilts her lips. “Will you tell me if you fuck him?”
“Everly!”
“Itold you when Mason and I…”
“Forgetit, Ev.”
“Fine,let’s eat before I starve to death. And you need to gain some weight. I could feelyour ribs through your shirt.”
“Yes,dear.”
Iswear Ev needs to work on her acting skills. When Alex comes home, he takes onelook at the expression on her face and glances at me, eyebrows reaching for theceiling. “Everything okay?”
“Everything’sgreat,” Ev exclaims, hugging him and grinning ear to ear. “I have to get going.See you later, guys.” Subtle Ev. Real fucking subtle.
Alexturns to me as soon as she’s gone. “You told her you kissed me.”
Witha shrug, I flop onto the couch. “I needed to talk to someone.”
“Iget it, but you can talk to me,” he says, sitting beside me. “Do you regret it?Are you trying to find a way to let me down easy without hurting my feelings?”
Islide my hand up his nape, into his blond curls. “No, just trying to figure outhow to do this. I’m not going to lie and say I don’t have feelings for you,but…sexually…I don’t know if I can.”
Hisface softens and he lays a hand on my cheek. “You never have to do anything youdon’t want to do. Just do what feels right to you and get out of your head.Stop worrying.”
“I’venever been in a relationship with anyone. I don’t want to screw up and hurtyou. After all you went through with Cooper…”
Deeplaughter rumbles his chest. “Cooper would be cheering me on. We used to bet onwhether we could ever talk you into a three way.”
“Neverwould’ve happened,” I laugh. “That’s another thing, though. I like women, fuckIlovewomen. I can’t promise I’ll never want one again.”
“I’mnot going to act like a jealous housewife if you bring a chick home, man. Mightwant to watch though,” he says with a smirk.
Hefolds me into his arms, and I lean back against his chest. His breath warms myneck, sending a chill across my skin. “Have you ever been with a woman?”
“Acouple of times. It’s not like I find it disgusting. It just doesn’t turn meon.”
“DoI?”
“Oh,dark eyes, you don’t want to know the things I’ve pictured us doing. But fornow, I’ll settle for making out on the couch like horny teenagers.”
