Page 204 of Lilah
"I saw that," his voice gets lower.
"Well, Grey," I clear my throat.
What do I say, what do I say, what do I say, what do I say.
"I thought you said I couldn't keep a guy around long enough to have sex with me?"
He freezes and I bite my lip to keep myself from smiling.
"...Bullshit," he says almostcockily.
"Excuse me, I recall it perfectly."
"'You couldn't keep a guy around long enough to blank you with that mouth of yours always running'," I mimic him.
"I'm notaguy I'mtheguy," he shrugs.
The guy I love even though he's a hooker.
"The guy who's a crackhead," I let out a bark of laughter.
"You have to leave," I remind him. He nods, leaning down. I kiss his forehead.
"I'll be home soon."
"I'll be counting on you to not get headbutted, Sugar," I pat his booty.
He and I need to talk when he gets back. I have to be able to tell him I love him. He may not love me back or want to say it, but he needs tobelieveI love him.
Because I really love him.
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I sit in the very middle of the bed as Grey comes out of the bathroom, freshly showered, and looking amazing. He turns the light to the bathroom off, throws his clothes in the hamper and then pauses as he sees me on the bed.
"Fuck," he mumbles under his breath, "you look good."
"Come here," I motion for him and he smirks as he doesn't hesitate to do what I've just told him to. I open my arms for him and he closes the gap between us, lifting me onto his lap. I kiss his cheek softly. I pull back and just look at him, a little smile on my face.
"I love you," I nod.
"No-"
"Shut up," I cut him off, his eyes narrow a little bit.
"Don't tell me to-"
"Shut up," I tell him again.
"Little shit-"
"I love you and there's nothing you can do about it," I tell him in a final tone.
"Bullshit."
"You can curse it all you want," I hug him to me and rock from side to side.
I don't expect him to say he loves me too. He can't even accept the fact that I love him.
