Chapter Nine
 
 Caliana
 
 YESTERDAY WAS HORRENDOUS.Knowing that someone was in my home, the place my kids sleep, eat, and play, shattered my soul.It’s one thing for this asshole following me to leave pictures on my porch and stuff on my SUV while I’m at work.I can handle the shit being thrown my way.It’s a completely different story for them to actually enter my home and go through things my son touches on a daily basis.Bryce is always looking at pictures of his dad and talking to him.They didn’t have the best relationship while Darren was alive, but Bryce loved him and he always will.My son knows his dad died a hero while overseas fighting for our country with Uncle Caleb and Uncle Kreed.Then, having a panic attack so bad I blacked out and left my kids alone until Caleb and Kreed got to the house, makes me feel even worse.I’ve never had this happen before and I don’t know how I’ll ever make it up to Bryce and Rory.
 
 After Caleb pulled me out of the panic attack, things moved extremely fast.My best friends got the kids and I out of the house and we went to the store in town.Playboy and Sam were already waiting for us when we pulled in.All of us rushed through the aisles gathering clothes and some other things for the kids and me.I was still kind of out of things after the panic attack so I don’t know exactly everything that was bought yesterday.The only thing I remember is everyone loaded up two and a half carts full of stuff.I’ll go through it all later today and figure out what was bought for us.Caleb wouldn’t even let me spend my money on our shopping trip.He paid for everything and I really shouldn’t be surprised.Caleb never lets me pay for anything when we go out anywhere.Even when I was with Darren he wouldn’t let me buy things.Kreed is the same way when I go anywhere with him.
 
 Now, I’m in Caleb’s house on the compound alone with the kids.He’s staying at the clubhouse like normal and promised he would check on me during the day but wouldn’t spend a ton of time here with us.Tiffany is here and I know Sam and Shy will be here more often than not.They love spending time with the kids and know I rarely spend time in the clubhouse for any reason.I didn’t even know Shy and Slim were here until Sam got a call from her while we were shopping.Someone else is making the trip here but I didn’t hear who.There are so many possibilities I can’t even guess who would show up.I just know it’s not Laura.She’s doing okay but can’t make the journey here.It’s a few hours in a car and her body can’t always handle it.Right now, is one of those times.So, Kreed will make the trip home to see her very soon.Maybe the kids and I will go with him.I’ve missed Laura and it will be good to get away for a while.
 
 It's been a long time since I’ve been in Caleb’s house.Not since he had it built and we all took a tour of the place.Sam, Shy, and myself also helped him furnish the house so it would be a home for him.Since then, I’ve stayed away from the house and compound unless Kreed talked me into showing up for a family day or some other reason.Even when the kids and I were at the clubhouse, I never once came out here to Caleb’s house.I’ve been to Kreed’s house more than once over the last year.The kids and I have gone there instead of a room in the clubhouse when we’ve been here and Rory or Bryce needed to take a nap or a few minutes away from everyone in the club.Especially that skank Abigail.
 
 Abigail is one of the Feral girls and I can’t stand being around her.She still bullies me whenever I’m here and it doesn’t always work out for her.The guys don’t allow her to pull the same shit she used to in high school when it comes to me.While everything is the same, I will say Abigail has learned to become sneaky when she’s trying to get away with things.Especially bullying me or making me look like a fool in front of an audience.Honestly, I couldn’t give a shit what the Feral girls think about me.They don’t mean a damn thing and are only around to get laid and make money from the guys.When I’m in the clubhouse, they can’t touch me.Caleb has made it known as the President of the Feral Dragons MC that I’m untouchable and if anyone touches me, they’re out on their ass without a second chance.
 
 “Buddy, I’m gonna go find the bags from our shopping trip last night.You stay right here and play.Rory’s still sleeping so I want to get things done before she wakes up,” I tell my son, watching as he looks up at me and smiles while nodding in response.
 
 Looking around the living room, I discover all the pictures filling the room are of the kids and me.There’s a few including Kreed’s and Caleb’s family, but it’s mainly us.Moving into the hallway leading to the bedrooms, I take in the walls lined with pictures.They’re all of me from the time I first met the guys when I moved to Benton Falls until last year just before Darren died.Darren isn’t in a single picture with me though.When he was home, we didn’t spend a lot of time together.And forget about pictures.He always knew I loved to take pictures and have them taken as a way to keep the memories to show my kids one day.After high school, he never allowed me to take them of him.I really don’t understand why it changed either.He didn’t get injured or badly scarred on any of his missions.Something simply shifted in him and he refused to take pictures with me.It really hurt, but I pushed it down like normal.I always pushed my thoughts and feelings regarding Darren down to nothing and let it go as if nothing happened.
 
 When I walk into Caleb’s room, a bedroom he’s never stayed in, I take in the dark colors painted on the walls and the black bedding covering the bed I slept in last night.The sheets are silk and I spent more time sliding around while I tossed and turned than actually getting any sleep.Plus, I spent hours staring at the picture Caleb has on his nightstand.It’s a picture of the two of us from our freshman year of high school.Caleb’s standing behind me with his arms wrapped around my stomach.His head is resting on my shoulder and he’s looking at me instead of his mom.I know this is a picture she took because we’re on the beach and it was just before our first day of school.Caleb and Kreed hadn’t been back from summer camp for very long and they were done with practice for the day.They met us at the beach and we spent the afternoon together.It was one of the best days as Playboy and Slim cooked, Sam and Shy had made a ton of side dishes, and we spent the entire day enjoying the hot weather and making memories.
 
 Sitting on Caleb’s bed, I pull the closest bags over to me.They’re filled with clothing for the kids.I pull the tags off each item and put them in separate piles.I have to wash Rory’s clothing separate from ours because her skin is so sensitive.My girl gets that from Darren’s mom.She always had sensitive skin and had to suffer over the years because his dad refused to let her use laundry soap and other things that wouldn’t bother her.I won’t ever do this to Rory.I’ve found the things she can use and won’t compromise her safety and being uncomfortable for any reason.Even if it means doing extra work around the house.That’s just my job as a mom.
 
 One bag has nothing but toys for Bryce.They’re mainly motorcycles since it’s his favorite thing to play with.Another bag has baby toys for Rory.There are blankets for each of them and a ton of food I always make sure to stock at home.I’ve got more clothes than I typically wear on a weekly basis.The only thing I know for sure is Sam picked out all of my bras and panties.Caleb and Kreed weren’t allowed in that section of the store.I’ve been with them one time when they weren’t watched and it ended up with them being kicked out.If I hadn’t been there, they probably would have been banned from the mall.Sam was pissed while Playboy and the rest of the guys laughed their asses off.I’m sure they pulled the same shit when they were younger and are living vicariously through them now.
 
 Once I have all the clothing separated and ready to go in the washer, I make a trip there with Rory’s things first.The basket holds all of her new things and the laundry soap I have to use for her.Sam picked out the washer and dryer for Caleb’s house and they’re the front loading ones that can hold more laundry than a regular washer.I load it up and pour the soap into the drawer at the top.Setting it on the cycle I usually use, I leave the room to gather the basket with the rest of the clothing and blankets.Taking it to the laundry room, I set it on the counter so it’s ready and I don’t have to carry it in later.Heading back into Caleb’s room, I gather the trash and deal with it before making sure everything else is picked up and the room is exactly as Caleb had it.I’m already disturbing his life more than enough and I refuse to leave his house a mess when I can easily clean as I go.
 
 “Who the fuck are you?”a woman’s voice sounds from the living room where my son is playing.
 
 Rushing out of Caleb’s room, I find him cowering on the floor with his hands over his head and the woman bent over him with her hand raised to hit him.
 
 “You touch my son and I’ll fucking gut you.Who the fuck are you and what are you doing in Caleb’s home?”I yell, walking up to get between the woman and my son.
 
 I take in every detail of the skank before me.She’s wearing a jean skirt that reveals more than it covers.If she were to bend over, her pussy and ass would be on full display.The piece of cloth that’s supposed to be a shirt barely covers her nipples and leaves more of her breasts on display than what would be decent for anywhere other than on this compound.Though I’m sure she wouldn’t have a problem going out in public like this.Make-up is caked on her face.She looks more like a clown than a woman trying to impress the men here.Though when they use the girls for sex only I guess it really doesn’t matter how much make-up they have on.Her blonde hair is from a bottle and looks very brittle as if one touch and each strand would break.This girl is definitely a skank and I can’t wait to hear why she’s in Caleb’s house.
 
 “I don’t know who the hell you think you are, but you have no right to talk to me this way.I’m the future Queen of this club and Caleb’s fiancée.Who the fuck are you and why is this fucking brat in Caleb’s home?”she finally spits out, her voice filled with venom as my heart shatters in my chest to know Caleb is engaged to someone like this.
 
 “I don’t believe you.If you were truly Caleb’s fiancée, I would have heard about you before now.And you would definitely know who I am.Since you don’t, I suggest you get out of the house and make your way back down to the clubhouse,” I state, picking Bryce up in my good arm despite his weight being almost too much for me.“I’m one of Caleb’s best friends and know everything about him.You’re nothing more than a Feral girl.I’ve seen you around here before.Get the fuck outta this house before I call Caleb and Kreed to come deal with you.”
 
 “You have no idea what you’re talking about.IamCaleb’s fiancée and I’m moving in here this weekend.I suggest you and your fucking brat get the hell out of here.Now!”the girl screams, trying to hit out at me.
 
 I can’t help but laugh as she misses and tumbles to the floor at my feet.She glares up at me as I crouch down and get in her face.
 
 “I don’t know who the fuck you think you are, but this isn’t your home.It’s Caleb’s.If you were supposed to move in here this weekend, he would’ve told me.I wouldn’t be living here if he was engaged to marry someone.No, we’re not together, but I’ve known Caleb most of my life.He might be distant right now, but his engagement would circulate faster than any other news in town.So, I suggest you get the hell out of here and stop spreading lies like you are.Plus, I’m not one to fuck with.Neither are my children.Every man in that clubhouse will get rid of you quicker than hell if you mess with me.My husband was Darren and they all served together,” I inform the woman pretending to be with Caleb as her face pales and she visibly swallows while her eyes widen in fear.
 
 “You’re Caliana?The woman every man in this club respects and cares for?”she questions me, her voice wavering as I stand and set Bryce down where he remains at my side.
 
 “I am.Now, get the fuck out of Caleb’s house and don’t come back trying to pull this shit again.This is your one and only warning,” I tell her as she practically jumps off the floor and races toward the front door faster than I thought possible in her ridiculous high heels.