Page 108 of Ours
“So, we’re okay, or at least getting there,” he told his new dom. “And we wanna try doing this thing again—the right way.”
“There are also a few things that are still confusing me a little. Like, with some of the things we did…” Cory trailed off, gettingembarrassed. “The times when I wouldn’t really get a say in what was happening, or it was a littleforced, I … liked it? How do we… Is that even normal? To want something like that?”
“That’s perfectly normal, boy. Common even,” Carl assuaged Cory’s fears. “It’s just another form of humiliation, and there areplentyof subs into that. You like the idea of being made to do something you don’t wanna do, things you’re maybe ashamed of liking, right?”
Cory nodded silently.
“As long as you had talked about it beforehand, set your boundaries, there’s no reason you can’t do things like that. It’s all about trust.” Carl smiled before continuing. “Cory, I want to apologize to you for my part in what happened the first time I met you. I didn’t exactly have all the info at the time, but I probably could have used some better judgment in the store that day. I’m glad you boys have worked through some of your problems and figured out that you want to try things again, but…”
“But what, Sir?” Derek prodded when Carl trailed off.
“You boys have been through a lot lately. Together and on your own. And aren’t you all supposed to be going off to college soon?” Carl reasoned. “I’m not so sure this is something you should be taking on right now. Maybe you need to slow down for a bit.”
“Come on, Sir. You can’t be serious.” Derek looked like he might jump to his feet. “If you won’t help us, we can find somebody else who will.”
“That a threat, boy?” Carl cocked an eyebrow at Derek’s brazen display.
“No, Sir, but…” Derek backed down with his tone but kept pushing. “The toothpaste is already out of the tube. We can’t squeeze it back in. Plus, you already agreed to keep training me. Isn’t there some kind of lesson about keeping your word?”
“Alright.” Carl sighed. These boys were gonna run him ragged. “But that means things progress at my pace. If I tell you you’re not ready for something, I expect you to listen to me.”
“Yes, Sir.” Derek nodded, as did Cory. “Thank you.”
“Derek, why don’t you go show Cory the training room I introduced you to after our first session?” Carl turned his focus to the silent boy on the couch. “I think Nic and I need to have a chat.”
Nic’s eyes grew wide, silently pleading Derek for help.
“Uh.” Derek looked between Nic and Carl for a moment. “Yes, Sir. C’mon, Cory.” Derek led the boy out of the room.
The room fell silent as Carl looked over the nervous boy on the couch. Nic swallowed.What’s gonna happen now?
“Calm down, boy. It’s not like I’m gonna shove a dick in your mouth.” Nic coughed and sputtered in surprise, making Carl laugh as he stumbled for a retort. “I’m teasing. You need to relax.”
“I’m not…” Nic huffed. “You just caught me off guard. Are you just trying to fuck with me? I’m fine.”
“Yeah, well, you don’t exactly look fine. Or like you wanna be here at all.” Carl cut to the chase.No sense in wasting everyone’s time. “You sure this is something you wanna do?”
“What?” Nic genuinely didn’t know what Carl was getting at. “Of course I do. That’s why I’m here.”
“That was the first thing you’ve said since you sat down,” Carl pointed out. “On top of everything I’ve seen and heard about, I’m just not sure this is really your thing.”
“Look, I’m not backing out of anything,” Nic said firmly. “I just didn’t come over here looking to be trained like those other two.”
“Well, good, cause I’m not looking to train you,” Carl told him flatly. “This isn’t about that. This is about you not being comfortable with gay sex. I made a joke about you sucking dick, and you choked on theair.”
“Because I’m not—!”
“I don’t care what you wanna call yourself, kid,” Carl cut Nic off quickly. “But you need to get over the fact that you’ve been having gay sex for the past six months. Because that’s what it is, Nic. You may not be gay, but the sex you’ve been having very much is. And if you wanna keep doing what you’re doing with those two, you’re gonna need to get over your hangups about it. Because I can tell you now, it’s gonna get really old really fast, especially when those two start exploring their options with all the new-found freedom college is gonna bring. You won’t be in high school anymore. It sounds like a cliché, but it’s very easy to drift apart once you’re not forced to see someone every day.”
Nic was quiet for a moment as he took in Carl’s words. “We only have the rest of the summer together anyway. What does it matter?”
“Ah, yes. Giving up before you even try. I remember my own football coach teaching us that one,” Carl said dryly before taking a breath, his features softening. “Kid, I wish I could give you some more help here, but I’m sorry to say that I am 100% a gay man. I never questioned myself or had to deal with this sort of internal conflict. I’m not saying you gotta run home and come out of whatever closet you may be in, but you need to at least try to figure out a way to get comfortable with this. For all of your sakes.”
Nic said nothing, again taking in the older man’s words, before nodding slowly.
“You drove here, right?” Carl waited for Nic to respond yes before continuing. “Okay. I am going to go back to my playroom now and use Cory to teach himself and Derek about bondage and something called ‘impact play.’ You can either head back with me and maybe learn some things yourself, or you can head out now. I’ll make sure those two get home safe. I’m sure they’dunderstand.” He paused for a moment before standing, waiting for Nic’s decision.
Nic looked up at the dom, wracking his brain over what to do. His immediate instinct was to take the out he’d been offered. Derek and Cory knew he wasn’t into coming over here. He could just catch up with them later at home. On the other hand … Carl had a point. The last time Nic had tried to avoid these feelings, they took the first drunken opportunity they could to explode all over Cory. Not to mention the “bondage” partdidsound like it could be fun. Was he doing this? He was doing this.
