“Hey,” he murmurs, his lips next to my ear.“You’re gorgeous.”He shifts down my body and licks my clit, oh-so-gently, but it’s enough to nearly make me shoot off the bed.
 
 He lifts his head and smiles.While the sight of Evan smiling isn’t unfamiliar, this particular smile is different from anything I’ve seen before.
 
 It has an edge of wickedness.
 
 He dips his head again and licks near my clit without touching it directly.I don’t recall being so sensitive before—is it because I haven’t been with anyone in such a long time?
 
 But before I can ponder that further, he slips one finger inside me and continues to lick me.I lose my ability to think straight as I grip the sheets and press myself against his face.One of his hands trails upward to my breasts, and he lazily pinches my nipple.It’s overwhelming.
 
 “Evan, can you…”
 
 I don’t even know what I’m asking for, but somehow, he knows.His tongue moves over my clit just right, and I come against him, a stream of nonsense escaping my mouth.
 
 He crawls up my body and smiles down at me, my moisture clinging to his lips.I want to make him feel good, too, but as I reach for the waistband of his shorts and the high of the orgasm starts to fade, I feel a prickle of unease.
 
 What if it’s uncomfortable for me?It’s been a long time, after all.Even if we don’t have penetrative sex, I have a sensitive gag reflex, and I also remember getting a stiff jaw from blowjobs in the past.
 
 Fortunately, from what I’ve been able to feel so far, he’s not as big as my ex.
 
 He rises up on his knees, and I pull his shorts and briefs down together.As I toss them off the bed, I examine his semi-hard cock.
 
 Perfect.
 
 He’s slightly smaller than average—I believe—and this seems totally manageable.When I grin up at him, he dips his head to claim my mouth again.I stroke him as we kiss.His kisses become sloppier and inelegant, which is immensely satisfying.It appears I sort of know what I’m doing after all.
 
 I lower my head, holding his gaze as I take his cock into my mouth and swirl my tongue around the tip.He hisses out a breath and sinks his hand into my hair.When he pulls, it stings a little, and I shake my head.
 
 “Sorry,” he says, lightening his touch.
 
 “That’s okay,” I mumble, but he probably can’t tell what I’m saying because I’ve still got him in my mouth.He’s fully erect now, and it’s the thought that I’m bringing him pleasure, more than anything else, that spurs me on.
 
 But I’m starting to feel a strange emptiness between my legs, and eventually, I lift my head.“Where are those condoms?”
 
 He removes a box from his bedside table, along with some lube.I can see that he’s got some sex toys as well, but I don’t get a good look before he closes the drawer and starts to roll on the condom.I settle onto my back, my pulse beating rapidly.Once he’s sheathed himself, he bends down to kiss me, and I buck my hips against him, my breath shuddering as my pussy makes contact with the underside of his cock.
 
 He slides his hand between our bodies and notches himself at my entrance, pushing inside slowly while keeping his gaze on my face.
 
 “Okay?”he asks.
 
 I nod enthusiastically.
 
 He moves inside me with languid rolls of his hips.I bend my knees so he goes a little deeper, and I hold him tightly against me.I love being so close to him.The thought that he’s inside me…it’s enough to make my inner muscles squeeze, and he releases a guttural sound.He lifts his head, his hand fondly stroking my cheek.
 
 I roll us over so I’m on top.The movement isn’t as smooth as I’d like, but it gets the job done.It’s okay that I’m not some sex goddess; he just wants to be withme.
 
 I press sloppy kisses up and down his neck, and when he jerks his hips suddenly, I accidentally bite him.
 
 “Shit!”I say.“I’m sorry.”
 
 “Don’t apologize.”He rubs my back.“I like it.”
 
 I still.“What, exactly, do you like?”
 
 “Not a lot of pain, but…the edge of it.”
 
 I shift my mouth to his nipple.He groans and shoves a hand through his hair.My hand joins his, and I tug lightly as I start to thrust my hips again.We move in unison, our pace increasing.I can tell he’s getting close, and I’m desperate for it.Desperate to make him feel as good as I can.
 
 “I…ahhh.”He holds me tightly as he comes inside me, and I bask in his pleasure.