Page 69 of Four Weddings to Fall in Love
“What’s next week—oh.Right.”I really am losing my damn mind to this woman.
“Is the sex that good?”
“I’m not dignifying that with a response.”
But yes, it is.
The next day after dinner, I text Kim.
Me:I’d ask you on a date next Saturday, but I have to go out of the city for the long weekend.Want to do something during the week instead?
Kim:Sorry, I’m really busy at work.Where are you going?
Me:Up north with my family.
Kim:We’ll do something the following weekend.
I don’t like the idea of waiting nearly two weeks to see her again, but I can manage.I’m afraid if I push her, she’ll run.
Plus, I’m still unsettled that I forgot about my mom’s visit.I’m the predictable son, the one she doesn’t have to worry about.It wasn’t like me; I feel like Kim has made me into someone different, and I’m a bit overwhelmed by my desire to see her all the time.
I also think I’m more vulnerable with her than the women I’ve dated in the past, like I’m wearing my anxiety on my sleeve, which is unnerving.
This reminds me of Clare fromDerry Girls, and speaking of sitcoms…
Me:I started Chu’s Restaurant.
Kim:Yeah?How many episodes?
Me:I watched five yesterday afternoon.
Kim:You binged it??I assumed you were the kind of guy who restricts himself to a single episode at a time and never stays up late watching anything.
Me:Well, I don’t stay up late for TV.That would be foolish.
Kim:I’m foolish sometimes.What did you think of the show?You must not have hated it.
Me:It was tolerable.
Kim:High praise
Me:Better than most sitcoms.Waverly is kind of annoying, but I like Paula.
Once again, I identify with the lesbian.Paula is the oldest of three siblings.Rather grumpy, she communicates mainly in grunts.She has a crush on a woman at the brewery but refuses to confess her feelings, too afraid of rejection.Some people might find that silly, but I can relate.
Though it’s very different from what happened with Kim.She was the one who approachedme.But I did eventually ask her out, despite our unimpressive one-night stand and her stance on relationships.
How is she feeling about relationships now?
I don’t feel prepared to ask her that, but perhaps I can tell her what I’d like.
Me:Can I see you sometime next week?I come back on Monday afternoon.I could visit you that night or the following one?
After I send the text, I rest my head against the back of the couch and sigh.My knee bounces, and I put my palm on it and force myself to be still.
Kim:Maybe?I’ll let you know in a few days.
She didn’t say no, which feels like a victory.
