Page 48 of Rising Luna
So where the hell did he run off to?
There were a few encroaching thoughts that Silas returned to his pack. Why wouldn't he? I gave in to urges and allowed him to have something he still should have worked for.
It wasn't until the morning light turned the room orange did the thoughts stop. Hunter woke up first, his energy filling the bond, which perked me up a bit. It wasn’t enough to make me happy but enough I wouldn't groan as I rolled out of bed. Jackson helped me by rolling me on top of him first.
"I could always turn that frown upside down before we head off to class,"
Trying to roll off while snorting didn’t go the way I planned. His muscular arms wrapped around me to keep me against his chest.
"I wish we had the time, but I’d rather not be late to class."
“Since when do you care about being on time?”
"Since now. I’d rather not deal with anyone telling us we cannot stay together or something because we are late. Let's not give Lupe a reason to keep more eyes on us," I growled.
It's not like they could do these things since it's in the handbook that mated pairs may sleep together. It's just that too many things weren't going my way, and I didn't want to risk losing anything right now. My wolf had been on edge since Silas disappeared. She wanted her mate here with her now that the bond felt close to being reclaimed after our night of passion. It made her uneasy that he was gone, and we didn’t know where.
We should go out to look for him.
No. What if we find out he returned home? I don't think either of us could bear that kind of betrayal right now.
What if Lupe took him?
It's not like the thoughtdidn'toccur to me. It just seemed unlikely. Silas could be lethal if someone attacked him. As an alpha-heir, they trained him to fight back, and it was high-end training that would make it hard for anyone to take him without someone noticing. Sera didn't even see a car nearby for him to get into.
So where the fuck did he go?
If he was, then my anger willdisappear. Until then, I'm going to believe the asshole left me. He abandoned me once already at this school. Why wouldn't he now?
The Moon doesn't make mistakes, little one.
Oh yeah? Then how did Jackson end up here and then bonded to me? His mate rejected him. He ended up here, and then the Great Moon gave him to me. Are you telling me she didn't make a mistake there?
No. She gave him that path to lead him here to you.
It didn't calm my anger much, but it did enough to allow me to continue the small conversation with Jackson. I noticed Hunter had left the room, and he came back shaking his head.Silas didn't return to his room last night. I wanted to believe he wouldn't do that to me, that he had changed and wouldn't have abandoned me again. The possibility of the past repeating itself, of him casting me aside, always came to mind.
It annoyed me to no end to turn down being pleasured by my mates and ignore all my classes to escape into them, but I had to pass everything to leave here. If I wanted to see my family and become the Luna of my pack, that's what I needed to do. My people needed to come first, and I've been away from them for too long already.
I wanted to go home.
Breakfast went by in a blur. When Sera joined us, I continued to ask questions and re-asked previous ones to ensure I had all the data on what could have happened to Silas. Nothing appeared to be out of the ordinary outside of him disappearing, so the only conclusion I had to Silas was that he returned home. Sera suggested asking one teacher if they knew if he did, seeing as he would have needed their permission to leave. It wasn't a bad idea. I'd just have to wait until Pack Magic to ask her.
It was going to be a long fucking day.
And a long day it was.
It was as if time ticked by slower because I had somewhere I wanted to be. Staring at the clocks didn't make it go by any faster, either. An itching in my chest reminded me about the bond not being completed with Silas. Everything felt like it was being stacked against me now. Hunter and Jackson tried to help by pushing their supportive emotions through the bond, but it didn't ease the pain in my chest. Before, I was only able to ignore it for so long because Silas had been miles away. After showing up here, I wanted to beat him senseless for what he had done to me.
That stupid night, with my hormones demanding his touch and being screwed silly, changed everything.
And I hated it.
I thought I could hate Silas, but I couldn't. He could have fought back that day in combat class, but he let me strike my anger out at him. He took it. Silas, the next alpha of his pack, someone who was too proud to claim me as a mate because I was a Shadowborn, let me strike him. It wasn't just to appease me. Silas let me do it because he believed he deserved it.
I think that's when the hatred I had for him chipped away. In thatmoment, I saw the good in Silas that I doubted anyone else could see. The image of a pompous prick faded once I could see he believed he deserved my wrath. Not the day in the office when he spewed words from his lying mouth.
He could have chosen not to say the spell that kept me from becoming pregnant during my heat. Every male wanted to see their female's bellies swollen with their pups. He knew I still hated him, and he didn't want that to be how we conceived our first pup. Other males wouldn't have been that honorable. There were stories of females not being in harmony with their mates, but they still impregnated her during her heat. They bickered for a while, and at that moment, their female was unhappy to belong to them. Instead of speaking the spell, they just went on with it.
