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He doesn't even have to reject me to end this because I already did that. All he has to do is walk away right now, and things would be over.
I don't want that. I want him at my side, now and forever.
I fucked this up, and I don't know how to fix it.
How do I show Silas how sorry I am when he was fucking tortured because of me?
This is the worst thing to happen... because I don’t know how to turn this around.
I am fucked.And Lupe knows it.
Chapter Twenty: Dylan
It felt like having my soul split in two all over again. I should have expected this to happen. This was why I didn't want to get close to Silas anyway. He broke my heart once, and I allowed him to do it all over again.
This was how my life went. As soon as I started to think I could have everything I ever wanted, the rug got pulled out from under me. First, I thought I found my mate and would finally get my parents off my back, only for the asshole to reject me and send me to this godforsaken school. Despite thinking I would get out of here unscathed, I found two more mates and an evil teacher wanting to take over the werewolves. Now, as I try to get through school to return home, all this happens.
Why would I let myself fall for Silas? I told myself I wouldn't so many times. This was exactly what I thought would happen, and it did. Knowing that nothing is guaranteed with mates, I should have seen this coming. He rejected me once before, and clearly, he wanted to again.
Anger brewed inside me as I stomped through the halls until I reached outside. I felt Hunter's presence behind me, but I didn't want to talk about this. There wasn't anything anyone could say that would make this better right now. Silas didn't want me. I pushed him away enough to hit his breaking point.
Because that's what I do.
"Dylan!"
Hunter grabbed my shoulders and spun me around. He pulled me against him and wrapped his arms around me, and through the bond I could feel his frantic feelings of wanting to pummel Silas for making me feel like this but also trying to keep me from doing something I'd regret. I wasn't even sure how Ifelt right now or what I planned to do. That didn't stop him from thinking he had to stop me from doing whatever I tried to do next.
The thought of pummeling Silas came to mind after feeling that through the bond.
But it was his voice that made me look at him. What he felt through the bond from me is what triggered this. I really needed to use my shields against my mates so they couldn't get into my head any time they wanted. Sometimes, it would be better if my thoughts were to myself.
"What the hell happened?" He growled as he lowered his mouth to my ear and then to my neck to deliver a small kiss.
Normally, that move would have me swooning... but I felt too broken for it to register.
"Silas doesn't want me as his mate anymore."
My voice fell flat as I spoke those words. How else could I even say that? That's what happened. My wolf whined again, and this time I joined her.
Hunter growled and held me tighter. The rumbling in his chest was more like a growl, and I wondered if he would go back into Silas's room to beat the shit out of him.
"Silas has gone through a lot. He may just need time to work through it all."
That was putting it mildly. What they did to Silas...I'm not sure we would get past this. He blames me, and he’s right to do so. If I wasn't trying to go after Lupe, he wouldn't have gotten caught up in this mess.
Stupid protective alpha bullshit.
"I don't think he wants to work through this. Can't really say I blame him, either."
I pushed myself from Hunter and turned back toward the trees. The more distance I put between myself and this building, the better so I can try to push my feelings down into the back ofmy mind and lock it in a box. If I didn't want this shit to affect me, then I needed to lock it away and not deal with it. I didn't have a way to erase it from my memory, which is what I wished I could do.
The trees beckoned me, and my wolf whined, desperate for freedom to mourn our uncompleted bond. Usually, I didn't give in to my wolf's every whim, but a run sounded amazing right now. Without telling Hunter my plan, I took off toward the woods. There was some shouting from him behind me, but I ignored him. Once I got to the tree line, I shed my clothes and pulled on the magic for the shift. By the time Hunter reached me, the black coat of my wolf was complete.
"All you had to do was tell me you wanted to go for a run, love. Will you stop giving me a heart attack and taking off?" I sneezed at him, and a rumble let loose from his chest. "You're going to be the death of me."
That sounded like an insult, but I opened my jaw and let my tongue out to be cheeky. He laughed, making my heart skip. At least one of my mates appreciated me for being me.
"Stop that, Dylan. Silas just needs time."
