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I felt myself getting angry all over again. I wasn’t sure that I could just stand by and do nothing to that son of a bitch now that I knew. It was Ingram that kept me from blowing my lid, the fact that she needed me more than she needed me to avenge her.
“Bad?” he asked as his hand moved to cover one of the balled up hands at my side.
“Yeah,” I grunted out because I didn’t trust myself to get out any more than that.
I let my hand relax and without hesitation, his fingers filled the spaces between mine. It was a simple comfort but it meant so much to me. I felt a pull to him. I wanted to crash into his chest and have his arms wrap me in their warmth. It was all I could do to hold myself back. It was for the best because I was already a mess and I didn’t need to drag Chris any further into it.
He gave my hand a light squeeze then pulled away and fixed himself a bowl of ice cream. We spent another hour hanging out and watching TV until Ingram declared that she was going to bed. Chris said good night at the same time and both of them headed off to their separate rooms, leaving me alone on the couch.
I had no idea how long I sat there, the TV turned off and the silence of the room starting to become an eerie hum in my ears.
I had all intentions of heading to my room as I pushed up off of the couch, but as I passed the stairs, the soft light from above caught my eye. Then I was climbing them with slow, heavy steps.
Chris looked up the moment I came into view, his eyes instantly connecting with mine. He was propped up against the headboard, book in his lap, and the small lamp beside the bed casting a soft glow.
I didn’t say a word as I made my way across the room and to the edge of the bed. I stood there unsure and awkward, looking down into his mesmerizing eyes. I shouldn’t have been there. I had no idea why I was, and as my head felt torn between needing to run away and wanting to crawl in bed with him, he opened his mouth and said the thing that always made me feel like I never wanted to go.
“You could stay.”
