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Then there was the girl that I started dating right after my dad died. I think that I was so grief-stricken and lonely that I was searching for anything to fill that hole. I did care for her, but not enough that I wanted to think about the future, and I think that set me on edge the entire relationship. But I couldn’t deny that she was amazing in bed. Wild and unafraid to tell me what she wanted. I would definitely have said that I learned a lot from her.
After that, was my one and only attempt at a hook-up, one-night stand type of thing. That one left me in a motel in the middle of nowhere with an empty wallet. And no, she wasn’t a prostitute! She played me and even I could admit that I was an easy mark.
But it wasn’t all that bad, because when my bike broke down a few miles after leaving that very motel, I ended up at a gas station that had a tiny garage attached to it. And when I explained that I didn’t have any money to fix my shit, the guys there patted me on the back and introduced me to their ‘brothers,’ then gave me a place to stay.
That was the moment I found that something that I was missing. The Steel Paragons MC became my new home and from the moment they let me prospect, I did everything I could to prove I was worthy of wearing their patch.
So that was my sad love-slash-sex life in a nutshell. Yes, you read that right, a total of three women. Not counting the whole Reagan thing. You could see why I was so all over the place and confused out of my mind.
“I’m going to bed,” Chris said as he stood and slapped my knee. “Don’t freak out about it so much. You’ll meet that special girl, and when you do the world will feel right.”
With that, he headed off. I killed the fire, making sure it was good and out, then headed to bed myself. The whole kiss thing long forgotten and all I could think about was how Chris had gotten it right. I was that guy, the overly romantic one. The one that had to have bells and whistles and fireworks and something real before I let my guard down. But I also wasn’t so desperate that I was searching and trying to find that in any and everyone. It would happen when it happened and that was what I let myself believe.
