Page 18 of Knight
I wanted to hate them all, yet I knew there was no reason to. That was the thing that sucked the most, knowing that I was in the wrong about the whole thing. They were good guys and I knew they were simply trying to make her feel welcome and be friendly. Well, I had hoped anyway. B-ry and Mouse had known her for a long time and who was I to stand in the way of their friendship.
I felt like the biggest dick in the world. Probably why I fucking missed the simple shot that had practically been laid out for me.
“Wow,” Mouse said and I could tell by his tone he was being a sarcastic asshole. “Do you even know how to play pool?”
I was going to punch the fuck out of his pretty face.
“Shut it!” I barked and downed the rest of my beer.
“Well, fuck. What the hell is your problem?” By the fucking smirk on Mouse’s face, I knew I didn’t even need to give a reply.
I wondered if I was that readable or if he simply knew because he had been around back then. He had been there to witness what happened with Gwen. But then I remembered that he wasn’t around the club all that much when he was younger. His mom did her best to shield him from the life. Maybe it just was that I was that fucking obvious. Damn, I really hated everything right then.
“I’m headed out,” I said in a pissed off tone.
“Really? So early, man?” I turned to B-ry and by the twitch of his lips, I knew he was just trying to get me going. I wasn’t having it.
“Yeah,” I replied with a forced smile as I slapped him on the back. “See ya.” I chuckled as I shot Ky and Mouse a chin lift then made my way out to my bike.
I sat there on my bike for a long moment. The muggy air filled my lungs with the same kind of heaviness that seemed to saturate my soul at that moment. I wanted to head home, yet, I didn’t. That was what sucked the most, to finally feel like I had a place of my own only to have the peacefulness that I’d done my best to create there yanked away from me.
The ride back home was short. As I put the key into the lock, I heard voices from the other side of the door. One I knew was Gwen’s but the other I didn’t recognize at all. I stood there for a long moment and listened. Sure it was creepy as fuck, but I didn’t care. The thing was, I wanted to know all about Gwen’s life, hell, I wanted to be a part of it. But I knew it was best if I stayed on the outer rim and just observed in the quiet darkness.
