Page 2 of Tank
CHAPTER ONE
Tank
“The fuck you doin’ here?” I jokingly asked Axe as I entered my mom’s house. Seeing him there wasn’t uncommon but I still liked to give him shit.
“What the fuck you think I’m doin’?!” he shot back with a wiggle of his brows. And clearly, he loved to give me shit right back. “Needed a trim, man.” He ran his hand frantically back and forth through his freshly cut hair.
While my mom didn’t have a salon or even a certification, she cut most of the brothers’ hair, mine included. She also offered her services to the elderly that had a harder time leaving their houses. Twice a week she would make her rounds, going to them.
Not gonna lie, I was totally a momma’s boy. Not that I let her do everything for me. No, I did shit on my own and took care of her and my three sisters, as well as my son.
Growing up, Axe was the closest thing to a brother I had. I was just fourteen when Cal brought him to the club. The kid was dirty and covered in bruises and had dried, caked on blood all over his body. I’d known him from school, but since I was two years older than him, I didn’t really ever hang out around him. Back then, I knew he didn’t have the easiest home life but being so young and not having been around any kind of unhappy home life, I had no idea what the dirty clothes and marred skin really meant. I soon learned that his home life was fucking shit.
Cal made the right call in my book that day he found Axe on the side of the road.
Cal took Axe in and you would never have guessed Axe wasn’t his real son from that point on. Axe lived at the compound, Cal giving him a room in the back right next to his. Being that my dad was part of the MC, I was at the compound practically all the time.
I prospected at seventeen and two years later, so did Axe. He took all the crap same as all of us, never once trying to get out of anything because he was, in a sense, Cal’s boy. I respected the hell out of it and I knew the club did too. The day he got his patch was the one and only day I’d ever seen Cal get a little choked up. That wasn’t to say the man was an emotionless asshole, he just knew how to hold it together long enough to let it all out behind closed doors.
“Yeah, I should get her to do mine soon,” I said, running my hand through my long hair.
My mom loved my hair and since she was the one that always cut it, she would never cut it short. In fact, it was usually long enough in the front to get on my damn nerves. I felt like most of the fucking time I spent trying to keep it pushed back off my face. For the longest time, we were on lockdown and I wasn’t able to get her to trim it up. Then, lockdown was lifted and the last few months a haircut had been the last thing on my mind. At that point, it was practically down to my shoulders. I debated on using those elastic things to keep it out of my face, but in all honesty, that just wasn’t me.
“Nah, brother, just let it grow. According to Bocca, ladies love that shit,” he said in a pretty flat tone.
I knew him well enough that everything he said came out in the same tone. The thing was, you really had to pay attention to his words and his face to tell when he was joking, or being sarcastic, or really any other kind of emotion. The lack of inflection in his voice usually threw people off, but then sometimes it could be a big advantage.
“I think we all know that I’m good on that front,” I said giving my head a little shake.
“Yeah, I know.” He rolled his eyes as he pulled out a cigarette and put it between his lips. He knew better than to smoke in my mom’s house, so I took it as a sign that he was ready to head out. “See you later at the clubhouse?”
“No, Grass and I are having dinner at Diesel’s tonight. Then I think we are gonna drink some beers at my place after Grass goes to bed. You wanna come over?” I asked, knowing the answer but feeling like I had to extend the invitation anyway.
“No. Think Jessica said something about wanting to watch a movie or some shit,” he said.
I didn’t miss the slight tick of his jaw and I had a feeling it didn’t have much to do with having to watch a movie. It seemed like it was about that time again for those two.
You see, Jessica was a club girl. While she was actually the coolest one there, she was still broken just like all the rest of them. And Axe was pretty messed up himself. The two of them, no matter how many times they tried, would never work. It may sound like I’m being a dick, but I’m not. It was just the cold hard truth. You would think that after two years they would just give up. But then again, I wasn’t them and I had no idea what went on in their heads.
“Later, brother,” I said with a clap on the back as I passed him in search of my mom.
“Noah? That you?” Mom’s voice rang out from the back of the house.
Yes, Noah, because according to my mom, ‘I shot you out of my vagina so, therefore, I get to call you whatever the fuck I want to call you.’ And while my mom had respect for the MC and the lifestyle, she never called me Tank outside of the club. When I was in her home, I was her baby.
“Yeah, it’s me, Mom,” I called out as I made my way to the kitchen. “Where’s Logan?” I asked not hearing the commotion of a small child anywhere around and knew that my son was never one for being quiet.
“Your sister took him to the park.” She angled her cheek up as I approached and like always, I leaned down and gave her my typical mom kiss.
I snagged a couple of grapes that were on the counter and popped them into my mouth. I knew this was my mom’s way of getting a few moments alone to talk to me. And there was only one thing that it could be about. I chomped down on each grape working my frustration out on them one at a time.
“Noah, you’re almost thirty. When are you going to find a nice girl and give me more babies?”
“Mom.” I pushed a long breath out of my lungs. I meant no disrespect to her, but damn, the woman wouldn’t give that shit up. “Logan is all I need. We’re good the way we are. You want more grandkids, then you got three girls that can help you out with that. Harp on them to find a good man.” I chuckled inside knowing that my sisters were not anywhere near ready to settle down.
“Look, I know it’s hard after what that bitch did to you, but at some point, you have to let it go and realize that not every woman out there is like her.” She looked at me with soft eyes and I felt bad for going off a bit.
I trusted few women. Other than my mom and sisters, there was Reagan and Ellie and they were already taken. Not that I had anything other than sisterly feelings for either one of them. I wasn’t lying when I said I didn’t need anything other than my son. And I sure as fuck wasn’t thinking about having another kid. I was good on that front. One kid was more than plenty for me, especially with as hyper as he was. Two of them would be the death of me.
