Page 57 of The Beta: Part Two
“Of course he wouldn't hurt her. Don't be ridiculous. And don't ruin my fantasy. I guess I'm a pervert, too, because part of the reason I want to see it so badly is the size difference too. I can't wait for her next heat. I get to see you and him both with her.”
I groan. “Jasper, don't rush me into another heat. This omega bullshit is irritating the fuck out of me. All I can think about is sex. And food. I'm starving all the time and motherfucking horny. And now I sound like an idiot teenager. Get off Reid's phone. I'll text you goodnight.”
He laughs, “that's normal, too. I'd be worried if you weren't hungry and horny. Fuck Alex. Let him mark you. You really will feel better.”
“We'll see. I feel better now after talking to you. I don't mean to be such an emotional disaster. I hate this.”
“It'll get better. Finish your dinner and don't forget to text me later.” He ends the call, and Reid gives me a little smile.
“Did that help?”
I nod. “Yes. Thank you. I'm sorry. I hope I level out soon. I hate feeling like this.”
Corso reaches over to tug my braid, “you're doing very well, Talia. You've had so much change in so little time. Try not to be so hard on yourself. If anyone can weather this, you can.”
That makes me feel better, too. I never considered what it might be like to get reassurance like this from an alpha.
After I left the hospital, Nathan and the others were very careful of me. I'm pretty sure they were terrified of me. They all were very, very considerate, but they didn't really assure me that Icouldhandle this. I think they're so used to having Jasper be so sure of himself with all the omega stuff that they haven't had to put all that much thought into having to handle an omega from the ground up.
I have an extensive and very functional base of knowledge concerning the care of omegas. I have utilized it with Jasper very successfully. But I have some sort of disconnect when it comes to myself.
I understand that I am an omega. I even accept it, especially after my first heat. I just feel, I don’t know, wrong for using my tips and tricks on how to take care of your omega on myself. I feel like a fraud. Or maybe that I don’t need all that omega stuff. I've lived for so long as a beta that I don't know if I'll ever be able to fully acclimate into omega life.
It wasn't my intention to fuck all three of them within twenty-four hours of being back at the manor, but it looks like that's the direction things are going. Corso needed to be with me earlier, I could feel his need eating at me through our bond. I didn't need a bond with Reid to know that he needed me. Reid needed to know that things between the two of us would be the same as they were, I probably did, too.
But Alex? I've been thinking about Alex since the drive over. Sex with Alex is always a surprise. Sometimes he's gentle and sweet, other times it's like giving myself over to a man possessed, but it's always fun. Alex is never serious; well, unless he is. But he's never been serious during sex; and, based on his behavior since we've been back at the manor, that isn't likely to have changed.
“You don't have to, you know.” Alex says as he rounds the table to shove nearly half a slice of pizza into his mouth.
“What?”
“Fuck me tonight,” he says with his mouth still full. “I can wait. You're probably exhausted. I talk a lot of shit, but I don't ever want you to fee like you have to fuck me. Like it's your job or some shit. Just because you're a yummy omega now doesn't mean you weren't a yummy beta, and it definitely doesn't mean you have to fuck me because you feel like you're supposed to.”
I could kiss him. He, Reid, and Corso wanted me as a beta. They valued me forme.I didn't realize I needed that reminder. I could do more than kiss him. And I will.
“Fucking you is not a job, Alex. I've been thinking about it for hours. I might have fucked you in the truck if I didn't think Reid would run us into a ditch.” I wink at Reid and blow him a kiss.
“Are you insinuating that my driving skills are questionable?” Reid raises an eyebrow. His lips are twitching to smile. I love Reid's smiles. They're rare. He might grace the world with a smirk or a closed-lipped twist of his lips occasionally, but when he hands out a real smile it has a lingering effect.
“I would never suggest such a thing. You are a perfect driver.”
“Yes, I am,” he says, still trying not to smile.
“Oh, he is not,” Alex snorts, “if I fucked you in the truck like I wanted to he would have flipped it.”
I laugh. I feel so light. So warm. So happy. I feel happy when I'm with Jasper. How could I not? But outside of being with him, I haven't felt happy since I was in this house three years ago. Jasper is the only reason I don't feel stupid for leaving here. If I had stayed I never would have met Jasper, and I wouldn't give up Jasper for the entire world.
Alex is watching me laugh and smile like a wolf watches a rabbit. It sobers me. I know he meant what he said. He would wait from now until forever if I asked him to. But he doesn't have to.
“Let's go,” I say, and tip my head toward the doorway. “I can clean this up later.”
Half his mouth turns up. “Race you,” he calls out and rushes for the doorway.
Chapter eighteen
Talia
I'm not racing anybody. He can run upstairs all he wants. It's entirely possible he'll be jumping on the bed when I get up there. I stand up and push in my chair, and bend to kiss Corso's cheek. I walk around the table and give Reid his own kiss, then I make my way upstairs.
