Page 24 of Anarchy
Chapter Thirteen
Emma
As I sit in the movie theater, I keep looking over at Mikey. I can't believe that he took me here just because I said I'd never been. He's so kind, and thoughtful. I can't believe that he actually cares about me and wants to spend time with me. I'm so far from any of the other girls at the club, and I'm sure any girl he's ever been with before.
Lucy’s words ring in my ear,Just listen to what he’s saying to you, and believe it.
I’m trying.
I turn my attention back to the movie. It's such a sad love story. They just found each other and fell in love, and now she's found out that he's getting deployed and sent to war. I couldn't imagine loving someone and then just having them leave for so long.
Mikey reaches over his hand covering mine and giving it a gentle squeeze. When I look at him, my stomach goes crazy, and I can't help the smile that breaks out. Lucy said she loved Jordan before she even knew what love was, I feel like I could be following the same path.
Whenever I'm not around him, I find myself wondering what he is doing. When I get dressed in the morning, I find myself hoping he likes the outfit. When I fall asleep, I wish he was there with me.
I lean in surprised at my forwardness as I press my lips to his. He doesn't move at first but as I pull away his hand moves up holding the back of my neck and pulling me back to him. His tongue dips into my mouth, and he tastes like sugar form the candy. I let my hand play with the hair at the base of his neck.
Mikey pulls back breaking our contact and pulling me against him. “You’re dangerous woman.”
I look up at him with a smile, and he places a kiss on my lips before looking back up at the screen.
This all feels so surreal. Finding him and feeling as comfortable as I do with him. I have seen couples in the community and the way that they treated each other was nothing like the way Mikey has already been treating me.
I lay my head against his chest and watch the story unfold before me.
The way the couple in the movie treat each other is something that I hope for and at the same time never thought I'd have. That's when it happens the girl gets a knock on her door, and it’s terrible news. He died while away, she sinks to the floor and as she cries I cry with her. It's not just because of the story I'm invested in, but it's the sense of loss. I get it, and lately, I've dealt with more loss than I could have ever imagined.
I've also realized something since I talked with Lucy. I didn't just lose my family and Issac. I lost me too. The old me that would have been content to live out life the way I had always thought was destined for me. The only way I ever thought happened. Now there are so many possibilities in front of me, and I feel like a whole new person.
My birthday is tomorrow, in the past, that's never really meant much. We would have a cake, but that was about it because with twenty birthdays in one house it wasn't practical to make a big deal out of them.
I don’t expect anything much here either. Lucy asked me yesterday what I’d like to do and I told her I don’t want it to be a big thing.
Honestly, the one thing I really want is just to be happy.
