Page 20 of Reckless
The fact that she’s comparing me to him pisses me off. “Don’t do that. Don’t sit here and hold shit he did to you against me.”
"I'm not." Her voice has more of an edge to it this time. "I'm holding what you did against you. It's just the fact that it's the same things he used to do. I'm not willing to be that girl again."
"I get it, I really do. I should have never said what I did to you. I shouldn't have pushed you and made you feel guilty for following the rules of the world I brought you into." I take a step toward her, and she doesn't retreat. "I'm learning how to deal with this just like you are. I've lived this life for years, but I have never wanted to share it with someone."
At that statement, her face softens. I take my chances and close the gap in between us pulling her against me. "I loved you all those years ago, Carly Ferguson. The woman you are today is even more amazing, and I can say without a doubt inside of me that I love her even more."
Her body freezes as I say those words. “How can you say those things to me? We barely know each other aside from when we were kids. You can’t even have me in your life as your girl because of how I chose to come into it. Love is a big word to use and— “
“I know it is. I also know that every single minute I’m not with you I’m thinking about you. When I’m not near you, it physically fucking hurts. I count the minutes until I see you again as soon as I walk away from you. Just because it’s fast doesn’t mean it isn’t real. I don’t care what anyone else says, I know that the way I feel is unlike anything I ever could have imagined.” I press my lips against hers needing her to not only hear what I’m saying but to feel it too.
Her body relaxes against mine, and I can finally take an easy breath. "I don't want you to say anything back to me right now. I just want to show you how much I mean what I just said to you.” Lifting her into my arms, I walk toward her bedroom.
Once I'm done with her, she won't have a single doubt.
