Page 30 of Breaking Free (Guarded Hearts)
Drew grabs my hand. “Thanks for spending the day with us. Are you okay?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean the constant anxiety, and I don’t know, I just feel like something is wrong.”
When we pull up to the house, Drew carries Maya in because she’s still passed out. His mom is on the couch in the living room, and Drew heads upstairs, I’m assuming to take her to bed. “Holly, come sit down, sweetie.” I go and sit next to his mom on the couch. “Thank you.” I look at her in confusion.What is she thanking me for?“I haven’t seen Andrew this happy in a very long time.”
“I…um…he makes me happy, too.”
She smiles at me. “I can tell. Just be patient with him. He has a problem letting people in. I can assure you, though, with the way he feels about you, he’ll let you in soon.”
They way he feels about me? What is she saying?
“I know the two of you really haven’t known each other long, but let me give you some advice. There is no set time frame for a relationship. Some people feel the love from the very first minute, and some people may be together for ten years without ever feeling that intensity. It’s not about the time, it’s about the people. Love is when you find someone else who compliments you, but at the same time makes you better. Someone who makes you feel alive and gives you the strength to go on when you feel like you can’t. Love is unpredictable, crazy, and at times cruel but it isneverplanned. The only way to know if you truly love someone is by looking into yourownheart, and let me tell you, the heart doesn’t work off of a calendar.”
Drew comes into the room before I can even respond to his mom.
She smiles up at him. “Andrew, why don’t the two of you stay tonight? I know Maya would love it and your father is off work tomorrow.”
He looks over at me. “What do you think?”
I smile at his hopeful expression. “Sounds good to me.”
“Okay, I’ll go get the bags.” He practically runs out of the house, making me laugh.
I turn back to his mom and she’s just shaking her head and smiling.
When Drew comes back in, I say goodnight to his mother and make my way upstairs, exhausted from the day we had. We get upstairs and Drew stops outside of a room that I can tell used to be his. The walls are plastered with posters of bands and there is clutter everywhere. It seems like it hasn’t even been touched since he left. I wait in the doorway for him to take me to a guest room. “You just going to stand there all night?”
“Do you expect me to stay in here with you?”
He laughs. “No, I expect you to stay outside on the porch.” Drew walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist. “There’s no way I could have you in any other roombutmine.”
“But what about your mom? I’m sure she doesn’t want us sharing a room.”
“Babe, the first time my mom saw us together we were about to have sex, she isn’t that naïve.”
While that may be true, it still feels weird. He pulls me into his room and shuts the door. When his lips touch mine, I lose all self-control. Our mouths move together as we drink each other in. When Drew’s hands reach for the bottom of my shirt, I freeze. “I can’t do this here. It’s not right.”
He smiles at me and then places a kiss on my lips. “We can be quiet, but there’s no way that I can go without you tonight.”
His fingers dig into my skin and I pull myself closer to him. I can’t resist the pull, the need for him. How does a connection like this happen in such a short amount of time? Maybe his mom was right and time has nothing to do with love.
We slowly undress each other, taking our time and savoring each moment. We lie down, and as Drew pushes into me, his eyes find mine. I see the same thing I saw the other night, but I’m afraid to hope that it’s what I think it is. I’m afraid to be let down, thinking that it’s what I need from him.
Drew moves in and out of me slowly, kissing every inch of skin that he can. I wrap my legs around him, pulling him deeper into me. While I enjoy Drew’s wild side, I prefer him like this. His eyes look deep into me, almost as if he’s trying to reach my soul.
My nails dig into his back as I feel my body tightening. Every time his hips roll into me, his pelvis brushes my clit and I moan. He kisses me once more, forcing his tongue into my mouth and I explode, using his kiss to swallow my sounds of ecstasy. Drew’s entire body tenses as he buries his head in my neck and uses me to mask his groans.
Drew rolls onto his side behind me and wraps his arms around me. He kisses my shoulder as I breathe a sigh of contentment. “Drew?”
“Hmmm?”
“Would you come to my brother’s wedding with me at the end of the summer?”
He kisses my shoulder again. “I wouldn’t miss it.”
As I fall asleep, I let all of the things that Drew has ever said to me ring through my head.
