Page 10 of Because You're Mine
“Stupid bitch…” I marched into the bathroom and grabbed my phone. “Donovan is mine now, whore.”
Going to my text messages, I opened our thread and sent a quick message.
Me:
Sorry, I’m chilling with my man tonight. You know how it is when Bae wants all of your time and attention. Your friends have to get in where they fit in.
My Sis:
Uh, ok. FYI, mine would never make me choose between the two. You know, mutual respect and balance. My man would know my friends are my family and would encourage me to spend equal amounts of time with both him and them. Enjoy your night with said man.
Staring at my screen, I snarled at her reply. The bitch thought she was so cute. She thought she had it all figured out. Dragging my eyes to a naked Donovan, one attachment would not only ruin her night but her entire life. Pulling my shirt over my head, I stripped down to my thong and eased my way into bed with my man. Once he felt me beside him, his eyes slowly opened, wild and confused.
“What’s up?” he spoke groggily before pulling me into his arms. “I thought you wanted to go out with your friends.”
“Fuck them!” I sassed, causing him to grin. “I was thinking we get started on that baby you talked about.”
Kissing me all over, I palmed the back of his head as he made his way down my body. Once he pulled my clit between his lips, I knew I had made the right choice. Fuck friends. Fuck the world. All I needed was my man, and with each stroke of his tongue, I knew all he needed was me too.
“My mind is like glass,sharp and clear; my light shines bright, I have no fear.”
For the past week, I’ve been lodged in Donovan’s condo, letting him fuck every hole on my body. Today, I was finally at home, in my own space. It was a nice morning, so I decided to come outside to my field and meditate. The energy surrounding me has been very dark and heavy for the past few days, and I needed a reset. Not only that, but the premonitions I’ve been having every night have been very unsettling.
You got what you wanted
The spirits took their fee
You should have left them silent
Now you’ll never be free.
Those chilling words have been sung to me in the consistent nightmares I was having, causing me to wake up in cold sweats. Each night, I would wake up in Donovan’s arms with him staring at me as if he were looking into my soul. That shit freaked me out, and I sought to put some space between us. Today was his first day back to work since he popped up at my job, and I welcomed the solitude. It made me wish I hadn’t quit my job so impulsively, but it is what it is. I’ll figure things out as I always do.
As I allowed my skin to absorb the rays of the sun, the fog in my head finally began to clear. Breathing in the fresh air, I felt the energy around me shift and become lighter. Maybe being in my own home is what I needed instead of always being with him. The more time I spend with him, the more I second-guess my decision to perform the black magic to will him to me. Yes, I want him and love the things he does for me, but I feel like that’s all it is. I love the idea of him, but I no longer enjoy being with him. I was torn on what to do because this is what I wanted—this is what I’d asked for. However, the possessiveness he’s shown me was not healthy. I could not stop thinking that maybe this wasn’t the best choice I’d made.
Crack! Boom!
I jumped from the sudden sound of thunder, opening my eyes quickly to find the noise source. I was so confused when I glanced up and found that dark clouds had transformed the sky. It had gotten so dark so quickly, you’d think it was nighttime instead of ten in the morning.
Bam! Crash!
Hearing the sound of breaking coming from the inside of my cabin is what finally made me jump my ass up and head inside. I didn’t have time to gather my incense, mat, and morningtea before I was running across the yard. Now on my porch, I stopped at the back door, eyes wide from the shock of what I was seeing.
My front door had been kicked in, swinging back and forth as it was halfway off the hinges. My furniture had been overturned, and broken glass was everywhere.
“Donovan!” I screamed, causing him to stop. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
With his back turned to me, he slowly pivoted at the sound of my voice. Gasping loudly, I covered my mouth in horror as I took him in once he’d faced me. His clothing was disheveled as he panted heavily. What scared me the most were his eyes. No longer hazel, they beamed a bright yellow. He looked as if he were possessed. Stepping closer to me, I could see clear as day the shadows that were dancing in them.
Donovan, the man I fought so hard to get, is no longer here with me.
“Where the fuck have you been?” he roared as he continued to throw plates and plants all over my house. “I told you to stay at my house and wait for me!” His eyes narrowed as he glared at me, scanning my body before he dropped a drinking glass, shattering it everywhere. “Where have you been? You been fucking another nigga?”
“Baby, no.” I placed my hands in the praying position as he walked my way. “You know I love you and no one else.”
Once I was within reach, he grabbed me by the arm, slamming me into his chest. As I searched his soulless eyes, it was confirmed that the Donovan I knew and loved was no longer with me. I couldn’t help the lone tear that slid down my cheek.
“There… there.” He grinned, licking the trail of tears that were now falling. “There’s no need to cry, Mama. Daddy is home now. I thought being with me was what you wanted. I thought I was all you needed.”
