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If I upset you or hurt you in some way, I’m really sorry

Or if you’re embarrassed about Malcolm walking in, I’ve caught him doing way worse, it’s really fine

SconesOfAyor:

Am I making things worse?

I’m probably making things worse

SconesOfAyor:

48 hours since SOA4??

SconesOfAyor:

Wait, maybe you’re just burnt out on the game after all the speedrunning

Which makes sense and I am being a dumbass about it

SconesOfAyor:

I’m being totally weird, aren’t I?

You probably just have, you know, a life

And I’m here worried that you hate me because I kissed you

I really wanted to kiss you

Maybe I shouldn’t have said that

But it’s true

SconesOfAyor:

Please talk to me

SconesOfAyor:

I’m watching your stream right now

It’s my favourite part of the game

Sometimes I feel like I’m the broken cloud

I try to fix things and I make them worse

Like this, I think

SconesOfAyor:

I miss you

Tears sting my eyes when I reach the end of Damien’s wall of text, and I can feel the weight of everything tonight—everything from the past two days—crushing me all at once.

I’ve spent this whole time worrying that I’m too much, that I’m overwhelming, that I want him more than he wants me—meanwhile he’s sent me a goddamnnovelabout how much he misses me when I’m not online. I’ve spent thiswhole time feeling guilty for kissing him out of the blue—not to mention…everything else—but he wanted to kiss me, too.

As if I’mnotthe polluted cloud. As if I’m the one that brings life to the world.

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