Page 36 of Spiralling Skywards: Fading
“I fucked up. I did something really, really stupid a long time ago and it means that me and Sasha can never happen.”
“But why? I don’t understand.”
“It’s not something I wanna talk about. If I tell you, then it means I’ll be putting you in a position where you might have to lie for me one day, and I don’t wanna do that.”
“I’d lie for you any day.”
“I know you would. I know you would, but I don’t want you to have to, so we’ll just leave things at that.”
I knew my brother well enough to know that the conversation was over, so I said no more.
I jumped as my phone vibrated in my hand. Hoping it was Liam, I flipped it open.
It was a text from Sasha.
Sash:Hey, fat girl, fancy some company?
“It’s Sasha, she wants to come over.”
Luke scratched at his chin and sighed. “Tell her yes. I’ll leave you girls to it.”
“Why can’t I have both of you here?”
“I can’t be around her, Sarah. It fucking hurts. You’re right. I do have feelings for her, but it won’t ever happen. It can’t ever happen.”
“I’ll just tell her no then.”
“No. Have some girl time. I’m gonna see if I can get on an earlier flight. As long as you’ve got someone here with you, Del will be fine with it.”
“I love you, you know that, right?”
“Of course I do. I love you, too. Just hang in there. Take it easy on Del and remember he’s doing all this for you.”
I nodded.
“Now, text your crazy mate back and tell her to come look after you.”
While my brother gathered his stuff from our spare bedroom, I texted Sasha back, all the while wondering what the deal was with Luke.
As if they coordinated their switch, Sasha arrived to spend the night just ten minutes after Luke left.
