Page 35 of Spiralling Skywards: Fading
“I already feel like I’m last on his list of priorities, and you saying shit like that doesn’t make me feel any better.”
My brother shook his head and let out a frustrated sigh.
“You,” he pointed his finger at me and then down at my belly, “you and that baby are his number one priorities—don’t you ever be in any doubt about that. He wanted to get Shain to fly to Scotland from Australia for this meeting so that he wouldn’t have to leave you.”
“So why didn’t he?” I knew it made me sound selfish, but in all honesty, I didn’t care.
“Are you fucking kidding me? No,Isaid no to that idea.Me, that wasmycall. Stop being so precious Sarah, it’s not like you. He’s working his arse off to build this company up. In ten years, we’ll be able to sit back and hopefully reap the rewards, but until then, it is what it is and we just have to put in the hours.”
I sat back with a huff and folded my arms across my chest. I knew all the reasons why they had to put in the hours, but I was sick, I was tired, and I was full of pregnancy hormones. Most days I was teary but that particular day, I just felt like being a bitch.
“Well if you’d have got Shain over, you would have mademehappy because Liam wouldn’t be flying up and down the country while I’m feeling so rough. You would have madeLiamhappy because he could’ve stayed home and looked after me, and you would’ve madeSashahappy because she would’ve gotten to spend time with her boyfriend.”
He stared at me for a few seconds with his eyebrows drawn tightly together and his lips pinched into a tight line. I knew that I’d pissed him off but I didn’t care.
“What the fuck is wrong with you? I tell ya, Sunshine, these pregnancy hormones are seriously messing with your head. I’ve never known you to be such a bitch. No wonder Del stays at the office. I wouldn’t wanna be coming home to you either.”
My mouth actually hung open. My brother had never spoken to me like that before.
“You’re just pissed off because I mentioned Shain and Sasha. I’ve seen the way you look at her. I know there’s something going on.”
“You know nothing.” He bit out before getting up and storming into the kitchen. I heard the fridge door open and glass bottles clink.
Luke stayed in the kitchen for a full five minutes, and before he came back, the fridge opened again and there was more clinking of glass bottles.
“Finished your little hissy fit, brat?”
“You gonna tell me what the deal is with Sasha?”
“There is no deal with Sasha.”
“You’re a liar. I’ve seen you, Luke.”
“Seen what exactly?”
“The way you look at her. You look at her like Liam looks at me. She looks at you like I look at Liam.”
I didn’t wanna betray my best friend, but surely he must have realised how much she liked him.
“All of us Luke, everyone, including Sasha, have been waiting for you to make a move. Even now, she doesn’t love Shain, if you finally grew a pair and stopped pussying around she’d drop him for you.”
I didn’t think I’d ever seen my brother look so angry. Well, at least not since he first found out about me and Liam. He was grinding his teeth and working his jaw as he stared at me.
“And you know all of this how? Has she told you she doesn’t love Shain?”
“Yes.”
“Has she told you she wants to be with me?”
“No, but she told me that she’s so in love with you that she can’t breathe when your around.”
He closed his eyes for a few long seconds.
“Fuck,” he whispered, so, so quietly I barely heard it over the crack of the fire.
“What’s holding you back? I know you have feelings for her.”
He closed his eyes again, shook his head, and took a deep breath through his nose. When he opened them and looked at me, I could see a whole world of hurt written all over my brother’s face.
