Page 68 of Spiralling Skywards
“No. Don’t. Don’t you do that. Don’t you saythosewords. I don’t wanna hear them. Not likethis. It wasn’t supposed to be likethis.”
“I know. I know, pretty girl. I fucked up, and it’s all gone to shit, and it’s probably gonna all get much worse. I just need you to know that I love you before I tell you the rest. I want you to remember that before I tell you why she’s here. I don’t wanna say the words, because I’m so scared that there’ll change everything between us, but I won’t keep them from you.”
Her eyes were so wide that they looked too big for her face.
“Sarah, I swear on my life that I used a condom. When she turned up at my office that night, I used a condom, both times—”
“Oh.” She cut me off. Her hand covered her mouth and she began to shake her head even faster.
“Oh, no. No. Nononono.”
She said it so fast that it sounded like one word.
“Go.”
“Sarah, please . . .”
“Goooo. Get out. Fuck off. Leave now. Just go. Please. Just. Go.” She covered her ears with her hands like a child and screamed at me.
The bedroom door flew open. I jumped up off the bed and straight into Luke’s fist. Everything went black before I’d even hit the floor.
